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i lost my love - amit

mera nam amit h . m kota me polytechnic 2nd year ka stundent hu. jab m suru me college me aaya to yahi sochkar aaya tha ki sirf padhai karni h .wha mujhe class me do ladkiya mili iti, or savi. m u hi kuchh comments pas kar rha tha ki tabhi iti ne kha kitna badtamij ladka h.mne bhi bura ni mana or kha tum ladkiya bhi kam nahi hoti. ese hi bate hoti rhi or bye bol ke hum apne apne ghar chale gye . pta ni kyo mujhe ghar aate hi agli subhah ka intjar tha . subhah hui fatafat tayar hokar college gya. class me iti or savi dono baithi hui thi kuchh bate hui . jab khali class aai to mne anaunce kiya ki jisko jo aata h wo sunayega chahe joke ya sayri. isi tarah din gujarte gye or kabse m savi ki cair karne lga mujhe bhi pta na chalaa. sayad wo bhi mujhe like karne lgi thi par mne ispe dhayan nhi diya kyoki mujhe lgta ki sirf padhai karni h to is tarf dhayan bhi nhi gya. sath sath ghumne lge . college me jha bhi jana hota sath sath jate . chahe mujhe toilet hi kyo na jana pade besak use bahar khada hona pde . phir mne savi ki dosti mne apne dosto se karwai sayad ye meri galti thi kyonki unme ek tha atul . wo bhi savi ko pasand karne lga tha par mujhe kabhi btaya nhi or mujhe kabhi lga bhi nahi kyonki wo use didi bulata tha or m pagal usper aankh band karke bharosa karta tha . mujhe to ye bhi pta nhi tha savi mujhe kab se like karne lag gai thi. tabhi ek din mera best frnd aaya ( vijay) . vijay jiske liye m apni jaan bhi haste haste luta sakta hu. vijay ne mere phone se savi ko phone kiya or bola ki a! mit baha r gaya h wo thodi der me aa jayega isliye jo m bolta hu wo dyan se sun .kya tu amit ko pasand karti ho . savi ne kha ki ha pasand to karti hu par darti hu ki ye bat amit ko pasand na aai to wo dosti bhi tod dega. vijay ne kha ki amit bhi tujhe pasand karta h or sach to ye h ki m bhi use pasnd karta tha. phir mne 29 nov ko savi ko parpose kar diya wo bhi phone par or usne ha kar di.us din mujhe esa lag rha tha ki bas wo bolti jaye or m sirf sunta rahu. phir kuchh dino bad savi ne kha ki hum dono best frnd ki tarah rahenge kyoki m nhi chahti ki is pyar ki wajah se hmara cariar barbad ho. mere liye fasla lena ek tuta hua sisa apne dil me ghusane ke jaisa tha par mne savi ki khusi ko dhayan me rakhte hue best frnd ke liye ha kar di. or mne socha ki savi mujhe like ni karti or m dusri ladkiyo ki taraf dhayan dhayan dene lga par m galat tha wo mujhe pasand karti thi bas bina kuchh btaye apne mann me rakhti thi or mujhe pta bhi nhi chala ki m savi ko lagatar hurt karta chala gya.or jab pta chala to itni der ho chuki thi ki m use hmesa ke liye kho chuka tha .mne use smjhane ki khub kosis ki par wo ni mani. or ye time esa tha ki m na jane kyo uske bager rah ni pa rha tha. mne usse bahut bar sorry bola par meri galtiyo ke samne meri sorry bahut chhoti thi . m dil or aankh dono se ro pda per usne mujhe maaf nhi kiya. or m tha ki uske bager rah hi nhi pa rha tha bas ek hi bat thi mann me ki kahi dur bhag jau. savi ke dil me mere liye nafrat pda karne ka baki kam atul ne kar diya . ek jhut ko uske samne barbar bolkar uske dilo dimag me bsa diya. kyoki mere bad savi kewal atul pe bharosa karti thi. suna tha ki esi condition me dost maddat karte h par is dost ne is condition ka esa fayada uthaya ki bas............
is tarh mne ek ese insan ko kho diya jo mujhse bahut pyar karta tha or barosa bhi. pyar to m bhi usse bahut pyar karta hu,lekin afsos usko pahchan nhi paya. jab usne mujhe chhod diya to mne ko esa mandir nhi chhoda jisme mannat nhi mangi ho ........ mannat sirf itni ki bas savi mujhe ek chans de apne aap ko prove karna ka ..........
par sayad ye to bhagwan ko majoor nhi tha ..........
savi meri classmate h isliye roj mere samne mera gujra kal bankar khadi ho jati h or m sirf dil hi dil me ro kar rah jata hu..............
kaas mujhe ek mauko mil pata.............
mne ek ese insan ko kho diya jise aaj to kya sayad m kabhi nhi bhul paunga...........
i love savi so much ..........







9 comments:

Amit handa said...

So sad. .

Shubham said...

Yar ravi kya tumhe ab bhi lagta he ki o tumme intress rakhti he

said...

dnt wry dude she wl definetly cum back. .hav faith in god. .jarur aeaegi.

Adarsh khatarkar said...

Hey ravi ...,uuse ek bar aur pyar se samjha .....i knw ....agar she lvs u.... To phir maan jayengi yaar......u can do it....

Anonymous said...

Believe urself

Anonymous said...

so sad.......

preeti said...

ap use apni bate ek letter m likhkar uski copy m rakh kar apni feelings btane ki koshish kro agr wo apko pyar krti hogi to jrur man jayegi nd ap atul ki koi buraai letter m discus mt krna.......best wishes to you amit

Anonymous said...

Pyar ki tadap use tumse dur ni rhne degi..bs kisi aur ladki ko apni jindgi me mt lana. Kam se kam savi k samne nhi..

Anonymous said...

so sad

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