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what is love???? - nitisha

Hey guys today I decided to post my story here…………
Me nahi janti ki meri story love story h ki nhi par me itna jrur janti hu ki ye kuchh khubsurat sawalo se bani ek chhoti si kahani hai meri kahani……………..
Tab me 8th class me thi me bachpan se hi kam bolne wali ladki thi par ha ek baat thi me ghar me to bhut bolti thi par school me jese ki kisi se darti hu chup rehti thin aye dost banana mujhe pasand to nhi tha par fir bhi thode bhut dodt bana leti thi orr ek baat thi ki jise dost banal u usse bhut khul mil jaati thi orr meri ye bhi aadat thi ki koi meri baat ko na taale matlab mujhe jo nhi pasand hai wow o na kare…………….
Me bachpan se hi tv ki bhut shokin thi orr bachpan se lekar 8th tak kbhi coaching nhi gyi thi…………………..
8th me meri frnd karri ko ek classmate ne kaha ki wo coaching join kre usne mujhse bhi chalne ko kaha mene usse kaha soch kar bataungi orr wo coaching jaane lagi………….
Kuchh mahino baad meri karry se ladai chalne lagi humari aapas me pat nahi rhi thi orr fir mene uss coaching par jaana shuru kiya orr jis din mne coaching join ki uss k agle hi din se karry ne coaching chhod di ab me dusri frnds se jyada baat krne lagi orr usse kaaam baat hoti thi orr humari ladai ho gayi fir meri frnd bani meri pyari si zindagi me aayi sweetu jo ab meri zindagi ka bhut bada heesa hai uske saath meri bhut achhi patne lagi hum coaching bhi ek hi jagah jaate the orr waha se hi kbhi kbhi patasi khane chale jate the hum bhut ache dost ban gye………..
Ab story par aate hai ye story start hoti h mere coaching join krne ke 4 din baad se ek ladka humari coaching par aaya wese to wo humara classmate hi tha par hum ek hi class k do alag alag sections me padte the isliye ek dusre ko nahi jante the kya pta wo mujhe janta tha ki nahi par me to usse nahi janti thi…………….
Jese mene kaha tha me serials ki bhut badi shokin thi too aap ko yaad hoga star plus par ek reality show aata tha ‘perfect bride’ uss show me mujhe rajbir bhut achha lagta tha…………..
Dusre section jo ladka aya tha uska naam tha ‘vrihad’ ( uska naam kuchh or hai par me yha uska asli naam nahi likhna chahti iss story me jitney bhi nam h sab man se h reall nhi hai par ye story real hai)………..
Mene jab usse dekha tha tab hi mujhe wo bilkul rajbir jesa dikha tha mene ye baat sweetu ko btayi ( meri sweetu thodi si deewani hai sabse alag uske saath reh karma bhi thoda bhut to pyar ko samjhne lagi thi)…………..
Firr thire thire me vrihad ke bare me sochne lagi………….ek bar ki baat hai me class me ek paper par ‘I love my india’ likh rhi thi tabhi humari coaching par kon boys aate hai ye baat chali mene vrihad ka naam likh diya paper par kyunki wo aata tha baaki boys ka likhne wali thi itne me teacher a gyi orr mene wo paper book me rakh kar chhod diya……………
Fir mene wo book meri frnd ko di usse usme se wo paper mila uss paper par kuchh iss tarah dikh rha tha ki job hi dekhta use lagta ki mene likha hai ‘ I love vrihad’ mene meri frnds ko smjhane ki koshish ki ki esa kuchh nahi hai par won hi mane orr unn me se ek ne ye baat fela di ki me vrihad se pyar karti hu…………………… me nahi janti ki ye baat vrihad tak phuchi thi ki nahi……………
Orr fir thire thire wo baat sab bhul gye ….. uske baad kuchh esa hua ki jo frnds coaching aati thi unke dimag me ye baat wapas se aa gyi hua yu tha ki humara maths ka test tha coaching par hum saari girls geometry box nahi le gyi thi to mam ne hum se kaha tha ki boys se le lena meri ek frnd ne vrihad se uska rounder liya par na jane kese vrihad ka rounder mere pass aa gya…. Jab mera test pura hone wala tha mene pucchha ki ye rounder kiska h vrihad ne kaha wo uska hai.. ye sun merti frnd hasne lagi …………… ( unhe dekh kar sach me mujhe bhi hasi aane lagi thi ki ye kese ho gaya)
Thire thire ye baat dil me jagah lene lgi ki me vrihad ko like karti hu………….
Wo saal nikal gya ab hum aa gaye the 9th class me ab hum coaching nahi jaate the par humare man me vrihad ko dekhne ki bhut jeed chalti thi hum jese tese usse dekh lete the orr jiss din nhi ddkh paate the uss din bhut bura lagta tha lagta tha ye din to gya kharab…………
Ye sab sweetu jaanti thi usne mujhse kaha ki vrihad ko bta de kit u usse like krti ……….
Fir kuchh din baad hum bhi nahi jante kya hua tha par sweetu ne ye baat vrihad ko bol di thi ki hum usse frndship krna chahte hai ( aaj tak hume ye nahi samjh aata ki esa kya hua tha jo usse bol diya gya wo kya wo humara faisla tha ya sweetu ki jeed nahi yaad hume par itmne jante hai ki ye baat usse bol di gyi thi)…………. Vrihad ne jawab diya ki wo humse frndship nahi krna chahta ( sach kahe to hume ye sun kar bhut dukh hua tha hum khud hi khud se puchhte the ki kyu usne inkar kiya kya hume koi kami thi? Kya hum ache nahi dikhte? Kya wo kisi orr se pyar krta h? hamare ye question to hume kabhi kabhi ye tak sochne par majbur kar dete ki vrihad swwetu ko pasand krta hai) kher hum uss bat se bahar nikle padai me man lagaya orr kuchh sub. Me top krne lage………..
9th bhi chali gayi fir aaye hum 10th me iss class me hume lagta tha ki vrihad k classmate hume dekhte the kya pta ho skta hai humara waham ho hum yhi sochte the …………
Par hume yaad hai uska ek frnd utkarsh ( badla naam ) humari taraf dekhta tha shayad ye humari galat fehmi thi par hume esa lgta tha ………………….
10th ki exam ho gyi ab the summer vacations humne fb chalana chalu kiya kuchh din baad uska frnd utkarsh humara frnd bana usse shuru me to kuchh baat nahi huyi par jab usne humse baat krna shuru kiya to hume yaad aaya ki jab humara hindi ka paper tha tab wo humare ya humari frnd ki taraf dekh rha tha hum ne usse kha ki kya wo anita ko like karta hai pehle to usne kuchh nahi kaha baad me usne maan liya ki wo anita ko like karta hai ( kisi k dil me agar ye baat uthe ki humne usse ye hi kyu puchh ki wo anita ko pasand krta hai jabki hindi k paper me to wo hum dono saath me the orr ho skta tha ki wo hume dekh rha ho ………. Humne anita ka hi iskliye samjha kyunki hum ache se jante hai ki anita bhut sundar hai orr rahi baat humari to hume lagta hai ki hum itnme bure lagte hai ki koi hume pasand kya humari taraf dekhn bhi pasand n kre)
Humne utkarsh se kaha ki kya hum uski help kre ye baat anita se bolne me bhut mana krne k baad usne ha kaha orr humne anita se ye kaha usne humse kaha ki usse mna kr de kyunki wo usk bare me esa nahi sochti………. Humne ye baat utkarsh ko bta di orr utkarsh ne humse kaha ki wo anita ko bhulne ki koshish krega……………..orr hum dono ki ropz baate hone lagi orr hum ache frnd ban gye…………..
Ek baar humne ek post par comment ki to humse utkarsh ne puchha ki tumne ye kya comment ki uska mtlab nikl rha tha ki hum kissi se pyar krte hai humne uusse kha ha ye sach h hum kisi se pyar krte the usne humse naam puchha humne usse kaha tum hi soch lo to usne humse kaha ki vrihad hum chok gye the ki usne vrihad ka naam kese liya usse puchhne par usne bataya ki usko vrihad k bhut ache frnd ne btaya tha ki humne vrihad ko propose kiya tha mene usse sab sach bta diya …………….
Orr fir mene usse kaha ki wo vrihad ko sorry bol de usne humse kaha ki wo bol dega ………..
Fir hum ab 11th course ka intejaam krne lage utkarsh ki didi humari hi school me hums eek class aage padti thi humne uski di se book dene ko kaha unhone pehle kaha ki ye book utkarsh k kaam aayegi humne unse ye kehkar book le li ki hum unko vacation k baad lota denge………… hume book mil gyi………fir math ski book k liye hum school gye humne uski di se math ski book k liye kha kyunki uski di ka bio tha to unk pas math ski book nahi thi unhone unki frnd se book lane ko kaha orr humne unse keh diya ki aap book anita k yaha pahucha dena utkarsh k hatho din e baat maan li ( humne ye sab isliye kiya kyunki hum chahte the ki jab utkarsh anita ko book dene jaye to uski anita se thodi baat ho jaye) par esa nahi hua uski di ki frnd ne book nahi di orr nahi mene jo sacha wo ho paya ………. Fir utkarsh orr hum baat krne lage uska net pack khatam ho gya tha to ab wo café me jata tha omline hone k liye jo bhaiya uss café me kaam krte hai unko hum jantre the kyunki wo pejle humare padosi the………… fir humara result aaya orr utkarsh ne humse kaha ki wo indore padne jar aha hai hum nahi chahte the ki wo yaha se jaaye humne usee kaha plz mat ja par usne kaha jaana padega fir result aaya to humare % dono k ache bane the humne usse treat mangi usne kaha ki tumhare ache hai tum hume treat do hum ne kaha thik hai orr fir unn café wale bhaiya neb hi humse treat ka kaha ……………….. fir ek din jab humne utkarsh se baat ki to wo kehta h ki “ tumhari di puchh rhi hai kya me tumhe like krta hu” mene kha “ to tumne kya kha”” to usne kaha “ ha”
Utkarsh” me tumhe pehle se like karta tha par kabhi keh nahi paaya I like u”
Firr thodi der jab humne usse baat nahi ki to kehta hai sorry wo sab humare dost ne likh diya tha humne uski baat maan li dusre din jab humne usse baat ki to humne usse puchha ‘ wo sab kya tha’ utkarsh’’ shayad sach’’ humne kha ‘’ kya ‘’ utkarsh ‘ kuchh nahi chhodo’’ fir hum dusri baat krne lage orr fir ek din humari usse ese hi bemtlb ladai ho gayi baat sirf itni thi usne humse kaha ki hume treat nahi chhiye kyunki mene usse kaha tha ki usse treat me nahi sweetu degi kyunki me usse milna nahi chahti mene usse puchha’’ kyu nahi chahiye tumhe treat’’ utkarsh’’ nahi chahiye kyu le hum dusro se tum to milna nahi chahti’’ humne usse ladai kar li orr dusre din hum anita k saath usse choclate dene gye orr jab café waale bhaiya usse bula rhe the to hum choclate café waale bhaiya ko de kar bhag gye…………….
Fir humne chat ki fir baat hone lagi fir wo kwhta hai mujhe indore jaana hai 1 june ko humne kha thik hai fir wo 3 din tak on9 nahi aaya 1 june ko uski di ka phone aata h orr wo kehti h ki utkarsh ko indore jaana hai to books de de mene anita k yha books de di parr na jaane unn 3 dino me utkarsh ko kya ho gya tha nahi usne mujhs baat ki orr nahi anita k yha wo books lene gya ,,,,,,,,, 3-4 din ho gye the usse baat nahi hui thi mene café wale bhaiya se baat ki to wo bhaiya bolte hai ki ‘mujhe lgta h wo tumhe like krta hai’’ me ‘par usne to kaha tha ki wo anita ko like karta hai’’ bhaiya’’ par jab me usse tere bare me baat krta hu to mujhe lgta hai ki wo tujhe like krta hai’’ me’’ me usse puchhungi’’ firr unn bhaiya ne mujhse kuchh question mujhe unn sare question ka ans utkarsh par hi khatam ho rha tha unn bhaiya ne mujhse kaha simple hai tu usse like krti h me ye baat nmaane ko tayar nahi thi parr kuchh der sochne ke bad laga ki ha me usse like krti hu orr mene usse message kiya ‘ I like u’’ uss hi din usk ek durr k bhaiya aay ethe ghar par baato baato me galti se mene unse ye sab keh diya utkarsh k bare me ki me usse like krti hu orr ye bhi keh diya ki 2 ladke mujhe like karte hai ( shayad mere ye kehne ka ki 2 ladke mujhe like krte hai unn hone galat matlab nikal liya) dusre din utkarsh ka phone aata hai mujhse bolta hai tune unn bhaiya se kya kaha mene kaha ki mene tujhe ye message kiya tha to usne kaha ki wo online nahi hua tha to usne kuchh nahi dekha orr usne btaya ki unn bhaiya new o baat uske bhaiya ko bol di orr usk bhaiya ne usse data tha orr ye keh kar phone kaat diya ‘ aaj k baad mujhe koi call ya message mat krna’ mujhe iss baat ka bhut bura laga ki usse meri wajah se data pitti orr mene bhi soch liya usse baat nahi krungi orr usk no. delete kr diye uss raat ko me puri raat roti rhi aaj tak kabhi itna nahi royi thi ………………………
Subah mene usse message kar diya sorry nd uske baad usse koi message nahi kiya ………. Agle din 11th me admission k liye mujhe school jana tha me school gayi waha par mene vrihad ko dekha usse dekhte se hi saari baate yaad aa gyi firr mera man iss uljhan me pad gya ki sach kya hai kya me vrihad ko pyar krti hu jisse 3 saal baat na hone k bawjud yaad rkha ya utkarsh se …………..kuchh samujh nahi aa rha tha
Fir ek din utkarsh ka message ata hai ‘ its ok’ mene kuchh nahi likha jawab me fir agle din wo message krta hai ‘hmm’ mene kaha’kya hmm’ fir wo kehne lga ‘ dhink chika’ orr ese hi message krne lga mene usse bye bol diya orr chali gyi…………
Dusre din man me na jane kya aaya to mene dusre account se usse baat ki par na jaane me usse jhut nahi bol paayi orr agle hi din usse bta diya ki ye account mera hai orr fir wo mujhe message krta hai’ jhuti ab mujhse kabhi baat mat krna ‘ mujhe fir se bhut bura laga orr mene accpount deactivate akr diya ……….. me ye ache se janti hu ki agar me id chalaungi orr wo online hoga to mujhse jrur bat krega par ab nahi orr nahi isliye ab account deactivate kr liye………………
( meri didi se baat krte time wo meri didi se kehta hai di aap meri di nahi ho kyunki apki sis meri behan nahi hai hum ek hi caste k hai orr caste me shaadi ho skti hai ) uski ye baate mujhe sochne par majbur krti hai ki aakhir uske man me kya hai wo kya chahta hai ……………
( mujhse ek baar usne kaha tha ki wo dusri gf bana kar anita ko jealous krega par uski baato se kahi na kahi feel hone laga ki wo anita se mujhe jealous kar raha tha nahi janti sach kya hai………………


Sawal hai ………… kya utkarsh mujhe pyar krta h?????? me kisse pyar krti hu vrihad ko ya utkarsh ko???????????/
Kuchh samjh nahi aata yha apni story post ki socha kar ki koi meri help kr ske
Agar koi kre sake to plz mujhe jrur btaye……………







10 comments:

ROHIT SHAKYA said...

NitishaJI FiLHAL Ap bhut bdi Confusion Me ki kon Sa Rasta Choose krna h, pR m To itna hi Khunga ki Ap unn dono k bare m Sochiye hi mt, manta hu y thda muskil h pr Sach yhi h

bt me To itna Hi khunga ki Aap God Se Prayr krte rhiye zrur godji apki Lyf m 1 aisa shks bhejenge, jo Apko world me Sbse Jyada Love krega,

Anonymous said...

sare velle ne

Anonymous said...

ama ye koi story hai..dimag ka dahi kar diya...bachpana hai bas koi pyar nahi hai...

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Anonymous said...

tm vrhaad se pyaar krti ho

Santosh kumar said...

Abhi tak tumhe sacha pyar nahi hua hai jo ki sirf Ek se hi hota hai

vikash kumar sharma said...

vese Real Me to AAp utkarsh ki lover hona chahiye. kyonki wo aapke dil me utar chuka hai. Vikash Kumar Sharma (09891177611)

8888 said...

hi............
this is vikas....
aapka real name jo bhi ho,,,but i know ki aap mushkil me hain...
pyar ek aisa haseen ahsaas hota hai... jo ham kisi ek ke liye jeete hain....
ham aapko iske baare me kuch batana chahenge...
aap hamse contact kar sakte hain...
facebook par is id se search kar lijiyega... ham milenge....." heavensinger@gmail.com "

Atif said...

Hii yaar wakai aapki story bahut dificult hai meri toh kuch samjh m nahi aa raha hai ke ye kya ho raha hai ..

Waise har insaan ke andar do sakhs hote hai ek wo jo aapko apni tarf khichta hai dusra apni tarf. But sahi faisla toh aapko hi lena hai pyaar usi se kro jiske saath puri zindagi bita sako ..varna adhura pyaar bahut tarpta hai....

God bless u my friend....!!!

Vikash Dhillon said...

i think ,tumhe vrihad se love h ,jo sahi bhi h,kyoki utraksh ne tumhare sath kucch bhi sahi nahi kiya ,jo tumhare liye kisi or ko chhod sakta h wah kal kisi or ke liye tumhe bhi chhod sakta h ok

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