Mai 40 years old ek widow hu, koi 8 sal pehle mere husband ki ek DURGATNA me maut ho gai thi, us samay mera beta koi 5 years ka tha, mere pati ek private job me the, Financial problem ke karan hum dono pati patni me bahut bnab nahi tha, us par wo mere mata pita ke ghar par hi rahte the, Gaun (village) me jo kuchh bhi tha use wo apne bhaiyo (brother) ko de rakha tha, aur yha bhi jo kuchh kamate the usme se v kuchh unlogo ke pass bhejte the, To iss tarah se hmare pas paise ke name par kuchh bhi nahi tha.
Unki maut k badd mai naukari k liye bhatkane lagi, kisi ne koi sahar nahi diya. jaha wo private me kam karte the unlogo ne v ankhe pher lee. iss tarah se mai bilkul tut gai. ghar me budhe (old) mata pita the aur hai, unhi ka sahara mila hua hai, par iss umra me unka sahara hum bante, waha hum hi unke liye bojh ban gaye. issi bich hme ek naukari mili 6 months ke contract par yeha mujhe ek Baush mile jo ki 61 years ke the, wo kafi strickt nature ke the, sabhi unse darte the. suru-suru me hme v dar lagta tha, koi 3 months tak wo mujhse bat nahi kiye. par ek din achanak unhone hme festival ka wish kiya aur puchha ki tumne kaise manaya festival? maine unhe bataya ki mai aur mera beta dono milkar festival manaye. tab unhe pata chala ki mai widow hu. Aur tab se wo mera bahut khyal rakhne lage. isi tarah se 6 months aur bit gaye. ab boss aur emplyee k bich ki duri khatam ho gai thi.ab humdono me bahut si bate hone lagi. maine unhe kaha ki aap itna pyar karte hai mujhe bishbas nahi hota. ab mere muh se PYAR shabd sunkar wo hairan ho gaye. unhone kaha ki mujhe yakin nahi hota ki tum mujhe pyar karti ho kyuki mere aur tumhar bich umra ka bahut bada FASLA hai. par wo mujhe bahut achhe lagte the. kyoki mai dekhti thi ki wo apne FAMILY ko bahut important dete the. sath hi mujhe bhi udas dekhte to preshan ho jate. issi tarah samay bitta gaya. unhone kabhi mujhe chhune ki koshis nahi ki aur maine kabhi bhi unse koi paise nahi liye, kabhi bahut jarurat bhi hui to liye bhi to lauta diye, unhone mana bhi kiya par mai nahi chahti thi ki mai kisi aur se paise lu. ha mai kabhi-kabhi bahut udas hoti thi to kisi ke kandhe par sar rakhkar rona chati hu to unke karib chali jati thi, aur wo bhi mujhe apno k jaisa sahla dete the.
Ab yeh PYAR itna badh gaya hai ki mai unke bina nahi jee sakti, unhe to mere bina koi fark nahi padta, kyoki unke pas sab kuchh hai, mere pas to kuchh bhi nahi hai.
meri samajh me nahi aata ki mai kya karu. kyoki kuchh din badd wo chale jayege, aur ye office mujhe rakhegi v ya nahi.