Hi friends,
Isse pahle kabhi maine apni ya koi aur kahani nahi likhi, shayad ache se express na kar pau feeling, par meri bat mere dil ke bahut kareeb hai, aur 8 salo se jise apne andar dafan kiya h use aaj bahar nikal dena chahti hu, shayad isi se mere mun ko kuch sukoon mil jaye.
8 sal purani bat hai, tab mai 12 class me padhti thi, mujhe mere math k teacher bahut ache lagte the, aur class ki topper hone ki wajah se mai bhi unki best student thi. Woh mujhe apni chhoti bahan mante the aur waise hi treat krte the, aur mai bhi shuru me unhe bhai manke unse bate kiya karti thi, phone karti. mere parents unse bat karne pe mujhse aitraj nahi karte the, but jyada bat karne se roka karte the. Dheere dheere najane mujhe kya ho gaya, mujhe jaise unse bat karne ka nasha sa ho gaya tha, 2 din me call na karu to mun me ajeeb sa dawab mahsoos hota tha,so bahut bar gharwalo se chhipa kar bhi call karti. School me kisi na kisi bahane se unhe dekha kiya karti thi. But mera introvert nature hone ki unhe kabhi iss naye ahsas k bare me jahir nahi hone diya. Unhe niharna aur bate karna to jaise meri life hi ban gai thi.
Unka pahla sparsh: School ki taraf se mujhe kisi competition k liye Udaipur jana tha, aur train station pe woh mujhse milne aane wale the, bahut der intzar karne par jab woh nahi aaye to mai unhe akele station pe pass wale platform pe dhundhne chali gai, aur achanak se woh mujhe mil gaye. Tab unke sath wapis platform tak jate waqt, sath chalte hue na jane kitni bar unka ur mera hath takraya, Woh adbhut ahsas aaj tak bhula nahi pai mai. 15 sal ki yowan umar me kisi ka pahla sparsh tha jo mujhe andar tak chhoo gaya tha.
12 class khtam hone k bad ki vacations(march to may) me unse milne unke ghar jaya karti. woh akele kiraye pe room leke raha karte the. Unse milne ka bhi kuch anokha aur adbhut ahsas hota tha mujhe, unhe sunna bahut lubhata tha man ko. Hamesha mun karta ki waqt tham jaye aur mujhe ghar wapis na jana pade, par hamesha unse milne ke bad mere pet ajeeb sa dard shuru ho jata, tab mai badi innocent thi, so matlab nahi janti thi, aur unhe bhi iss bare me kabhi nahi bataya, ye sochke ki unhe ajeeb lagega. Apni ek friend ko bataya, par use bhi nahi pata tha ki ye kya hai.
Phir ek din unhone bataya ki unki shadi hone wali hai, July me. Mai pagal, innocent, itni badi bewkoof bachchi thi ki unki khushi me khush hoti rahi, kabhi nahi soch pai ki yahi khabar ek din mujhe rulane, mujhe beetar tak todke rakhne ke liye kafi hogy.
July me unki shadi ho gai, August me parents ne mujhe engineering karne bahar bhej diya. Woh kabhi kabar wahan mujhe call karke mere hal chal pooch liya karte. aur mai bhi kabhi kabhi Rs. bacha ke unke STD se call kar deti. Mobile lene ke bad unhe sms bhikarne lagi, aur inn sms ne mere pyar ko aur hawa de di. Shuru ke ek saal woh aur unki wife ko alag alag rahna pada tha, so mujhe kabhi unse bar karne me kabhi koi rukawat mahsus nahi hui. Jab bhi ghar jati chhutti pe, to kai bar unse milne jaya kari. Aise hi milne, sms aur call silsila chalta raha. Jab bhi milte ya bat karte, tab sirf normal hal chal poochte woh, aur mai jyadatar unhe suna hi karti. But jab bhi mai unhe Sms kari to kuch shayri ya pyar bhaya koi msg bhejti. Karwachuoth pe unke liye vrat rakha, aur unhe love wale msg bhi kiye. Uss din unka call aaya, aur mujhse directly pooch dala... \'Surbhi, sach batana.. kya tum mujhse pyar karti ho?\' mai bhauchakki rah gai, ye soch k ki unhe kaise pata laga, par smjh nahi pai ki bachi mai hoon, woh nahi, woh smjhte hai lve sms ka meaning, aur unhe bhejne k peeche intensions.
Mujhe smjh nahi aaya mai kya kahu, so bas \'haan\' kah diya, agle hi pal unhone kaha... \'tumhe mujhe pahle kyo nahi bataya, pahle batati to shayad kuch ho jata, par ab kuch nahi\'. Aur unhone phone rakh diya.
Unki ye bat aaj tak mera seena chhalni kar deti hai, ye sauchke ki maine unhe pahle kyo nahi bataya, kyo woh mujhse 9 sal bade the ki unki shadi pahle ho gai. Aur unka ye kahne ka kya meaning tha \' pahle batati to shayad kuch ho jata\', kya woh mujhse pyar/shadi kar lete agar mai pahle batati. In sawalo ka jawab mujhe aajtak nahi mila.
Uss din mai bahut roi, bahut call back kiya unhe par no response, but depress hone pe socha mar jau, so unhe aakhiri sms kiya, batane k liye ki mai unse bahut bahut pyar karti hoon. Par sms karte hi unka call aa gaya, aur bahut smjhaya mujhe, aur kaha mera unhe chahna sahi nahi h, woh already married hai. aur mujhse promise lia ki mai koi suicide karne jaisa galat kadam nahi uthaungi. Maine bhi unse promise lia ki aap bhi mujhse bat karna nahi chhodoge.
Uske bad maine apna promise nibhaya, aur unhone apna. Woh mujhse pahle ki tarah hi bat karte rahe, aur mai ab thoda khul ke unhe apne pyar ka ahsas karane lage kabhi sms aur kabhi cards k through, jiska unhone kabhi response nahi kiya aur bahut bar mujhe ignore kiya. Par unka aisa karna mujhse unse door karne ki bajay aur kareeb lata gaya, mere man me unki ek bahut ache insan k roop me chhavi banne lagi. Kahan to aajkal ke time me koi kisi ka fayda uthane se peeche nahi hatta wahin woh the jo mujhe smjhane aur apne se door rakhne ki koshish karte. Aisa nahi hai ki mai koi badsoorat hoon, bahut se ladke marte the class me, par woh kuch jyada hi shareef the.
Bahut samay k bad as usual maine unhe koi love sms bheja, aur uske turant bad kuch naya hua jo pahle kabhi na hua tha, unka in return msg aaya, ek bahut hi pyar bhari shayri, jiska meaning niklta tha ki \'bas aap hi hamein pyar nahi karte, hum bhi apse pyar karte h\', uss din mai khushi se jhoom uthi. Unhe call lagaya but hamesha ki tarah unhone mujhe ignore kiya. Ignore hi karna tha to sms kyo bheja. Jo bhi hai, mai hamesha uss sms ko khol ke seene se laga liya karti. Unse fir kai dino pe bat bhi hui but fir se normal. Meri taraf se love sms bhejna barabar chalta raha. Fir ek din unhone call pe kaha ki \'mai tumhe hug karna chahta hoon\'... aur kaha ki ab ki bar jab tu ghar aayegi na tab mai tujhe hug karuga.. aur mai shy, introvert kuch na kah pai, aur unhone phone rakh diya. (Unki aadat hi thi, kabhi naraj hoke, ya kabhi kisi aur bat pe achanak phone rakh diya karte the, but uss din k bad ek aur cheese phone achanak se rakhne me shamil ho gai thi). Unki iss bat se mere poore badan me sihran si daud gai, aur mai bas holidays ka besabri se wait karne lagi. Fir aakhir woh din aaya, jab mai unse milne gai, dil me bas yahi khyal tha ki najane kya hoga, but hamesha ki tarah woh poore time normal behave karte rahe, fir maine himmat juta k unhe mujhe hug karne ki bat yad dilai, to unhone thoda chhichkate hue, mujhe halka sa hug kiya. Man kiya ki unhe ache se hug karu, but unhone mauka nahi diya, aur hat gaye. Hamesha ki taraf uss din bhi mujhe pet me dard utha, aur mai ghar chali gai.
Phone pe bat karna jari raha, ek din maine late rat call kiya, laga jaise woh neend me hai, par meri liye woh time sabse pyara sabit hua, jab unhone mujhse kaha, \'Surbhi, I love you\', mai phooli nahi samai, aur kaha, \'please ek bar fir kaho na\'... but long silence aur phone rakh diya.
Woh aur mai dono ajeeb the, jab bhi next time bat karte to hamesha anjano ki tarah se, normal bate, hal chal poochna, kabhi mai himmat nahi karpati unse pyar bhari bat karne ki, aur shayad woh inn sab ko galat man ke koi aisi bat nahi chhedte jo love talks shuru kare.
Fir Holidays me unse kai bar mili, aur ek bar maine unhe kiss karne ki ichcha jahir ki, but mana karne k bad, unhone mujhe kaha, theek hai, i can do. Maine unhe unke galo pe unke mathe pe kiss kiya, aur unke kanpte hotho ko dekha, par maine unke lip kiss/smooch nahi kiya, kyonki tab tak mere man me uss cheese ka ahsas nahi aaya tha, jitna ahsas aaya utna maine kiya, aur chali gai.
Bad me uss pal ko , aur unke kanpte hotho ko yad kar karke mujhpe unko smooch karne ki bhi ichcha jagne lagi. Aur agli mulaqat pe maine himmat karke unhe kah hi diya, pichli bar ki tarah maine unhe mana hi lia, Unhone apne room ki window band ki aur fir maine apne honth unke hothon pe rakh diye, mera pahla smooch tha, so aage ka kam maine nahi bas unhone hi kiya. aaj 7 sal bad bhi Uss pal ki yad karke mere man ki titliya udne lagte h, aur waqt thahar ja jata h.
Mere engineering k first year k bath ke time se, unki wife bhi unke sath rahne lagi, aur hamari bate aur milna kam hota chala gaya, tab jake mujhe unke shadi ho jane ka ahsas ha. tab jake mujhe ahsas hua ki woh mujhe kyo rokte the, kyo ignore karte the, kyon smjhate the, par mai nadan nasmjh kabhi smjh na pai.
Collage me kai ladko se frndship hui, kaiyo se attraction types raha, Unme se ek attraction se shadi bhi ho gai, but pyar kisi se na ho paya. Mere collage time me bhi mujhe mere pyar k bahut sapne aate the, shadi se just pahle bahut jyada badh gaye, to maine mere fiance ko bataya, shadi karne se mana karne ko kaha, but he said \'dont worry, everything will be fine after marriage\'. Par aaj shadi ko 2 sal ho gaye hai, par hamare beech kuch nahi hai, aaj bhi mai ek kunwari hoon, jiski rom rom me koi aur basa hua h, mere hubby woh mere sath ek frnd ki tarah rahte h, best frnd ki tarah bate share karte hai, roommates ki taraf ghar share karte hai, but hum dono physical relationship na to kabhi banaye, na hi ab ek dusre k liye uss tarah ke emotions aate.
I 9, sab kahenge ki mujhe purani jidgi bhula deke nai shuruat karni chahiye, par bahut chahte hue bhi mai apne aap ko uss pyar ki kaid se aajad nahi kar pa rahi hu. Mile huw 5 sal beetgaye unse, par kai mahino bad call kar leti hu, kyonki jarurat hai woh meri, ek ajeeb si energy hai woh meri, jan hai mere sharir ki, jo unse bat kiye bina kam hoti rahti hai, aur fir ek time bad jinda lash si ban jati hu mai.
Mujhe unse mile 5 sal beet gate, par aaj bhi unhi ke sapne aate hai, jaise kahte ho ki woh meri rom rom me bas chuke hai, unhe mujhse alag bas maut hi kar skti hai. 2 salo me unhone mujhe mera pahla kiss, mera pahla sparsh, pahla hug aur pahle pyar ka ahsas karaya. Aur ek aur ahsas tha, jiske karan mujhe unse milne pe pet dard hota tha, badan kanp uthta tha, uss ahsas ka matlab mai bahut late samjh pai.
Ye kahani agar unn tak kabhi pahunche to jyada kuch nahi bas kuch sawaloka Jawab chahti hoon...
1. Un dino jab bhi mujhe apke sapne aate the tab aap kahte the \'kyonki mai tujhe yad karta hoon isliye tujhe mere sapne aate hai\'... to kya aap aaj bhi mujhe har dusre-teesre din yad karte hai?
2. Neend me chahe, apne 1-2 bar express kiya ki you love me, kya woh jhooth tha, aur sach tha to bas ek bar khul ke mujhe kah do ki \'haan, aap bhi mujhe pyar karte ho/the\'. Sach jane bina mera dil har pal marta hai, I beg you please sach kah do, mujhe apke na kahne ka bhi bura nahi lagega.
3. Apne kaha tha ... \'Agar maipahle batati to shayad kuch...\', iska arth mujhe apse aapse sunna hai. kya aap mujhse shadi karte?
4. Unn almost 1 and half year, mai apko har 2-3 din me call karti rahi, apse chori se milne aati, mai to bachi thi, khud ki feelings nahi smjh pai, par kya aap bhi nahi smjh paye kabhi, ya na samjh bante rahe?
5. Apne mujhe samjhake kaha tha ki time ke sath sab theek ho jayega, mai to apko bhool bhi jaungi, aaj 7 salo bad bhi mai nahi bhooli, bataiye na mai kya karu? kuch nahi bata sakte to apna promise hi wapis le lo, shayad mar ke hi apko pa loon.
6. Kya aap mujhse bas ek bar, bas ek bar pyar karoge? Mujhe sampoorn hone ka ahsas sirf ek bar de paoge? i promise, mai apki jindagi me fir kabhi na aaungi.
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Mun ki shanti dundh rahi hoon, sirf apki Surbhi
Isse pahle kabhi maine apni ya koi aur kahani nahi likhi, shayad ache se express na kar pau feeling, par meri bat mere dil ke bahut kareeb hai, aur 8 salo se jise apne andar dafan kiya h use aaj bahar nikal dena chahti hu, shayad isi se mere mun ko kuch sukoon mil jaye.
8 sal purani bat hai, tab mai 12 class me padhti thi, mujhe mere math k teacher bahut ache lagte the, aur class ki topper hone ki wajah se mai bhi unki best student thi. Woh mujhe apni chhoti bahan mante the aur waise hi treat krte the, aur mai bhi shuru me unhe bhai manke unse bate kiya karti thi, phone karti. mere parents unse bat karne pe mujhse aitraj nahi karte the, but jyada bat karne se roka karte the. Dheere dheere najane mujhe kya ho gaya, mujhe jaise unse bat karne ka nasha sa ho gaya tha, 2 din me call na karu to mun me ajeeb sa dawab mahsoos hota tha,so bahut bar gharwalo se chhipa kar bhi call karti. School me kisi na kisi bahane se unhe dekha kiya karti thi. But mera introvert nature hone ki unhe kabhi iss naye ahsas k bare me jahir nahi hone diya. Unhe niharna aur bate karna to jaise meri life hi ban gai thi.
Unka pahla sparsh: School ki taraf se mujhe kisi competition k liye Udaipur jana tha, aur train station pe woh mujhse milne aane wale the, bahut der intzar karne par jab woh nahi aaye to mai unhe akele station pe pass wale platform pe dhundhne chali gai, aur achanak se woh mujhe mil gaye. Tab unke sath wapis platform tak jate waqt, sath chalte hue na jane kitni bar unka ur mera hath takraya, Woh adbhut ahsas aaj tak bhula nahi pai mai. 15 sal ki yowan umar me kisi ka pahla sparsh tha jo mujhe andar tak chhoo gaya tha.
12 class khtam hone k bad ki vacations(march to may) me unse milne unke ghar jaya karti. woh akele kiraye pe room leke raha karte the. Unse milne ka bhi kuch anokha aur adbhut ahsas hota tha mujhe, unhe sunna bahut lubhata tha man ko. Hamesha mun karta ki waqt tham jaye aur mujhe ghar wapis na jana pade, par hamesha unse milne ke bad mere pet ajeeb sa dard shuru ho jata, tab mai badi innocent thi, so matlab nahi janti thi, aur unhe bhi iss bare me kabhi nahi bataya, ye sochke ki unhe ajeeb lagega. Apni ek friend ko bataya, par use bhi nahi pata tha ki ye kya hai.
Phir ek din unhone bataya ki unki shadi hone wali hai, July me. Mai pagal, innocent, itni badi bewkoof bachchi thi ki unki khushi me khush hoti rahi, kabhi nahi soch pai ki yahi khabar ek din mujhe rulane, mujhe beetar tak todke rakhne ke liye kafi hogy.
July me unki shadi ho gai, August me parents ne mujhe engineering karne bahar bhej diya. Woh kabhi kabar wahan mujhe call karke mere hal chal pooch liya karte. aur mai bhi kabhi kabhi Rs. bacha ke unke STD se call kar deti. Mobile lene ke bad unhe sms bhikarne lagi, aur inn sms ne mere pyar ko aur hawa de di. Shuru ke ek saal woh aur unki wife ko alag alag rahna pada tha, so mujhe kabhi unse bar karne me kabhi koi rukawat mahsus nahi hui. Jab bhi ghar jati chhutti pe, to kai bar unse milne jaya kari. Aise hi milne, sms aur call silsila chalta raha. Jab bhi milte ya bat karte, tab sirf normal hal chal poochte woh, aur mai jyadatar unhe suna hi karti. But jab bhi mai unhe Sms kari to kuch shayri ya pyar bhaya koi msg bhejti. Karwachuoth pe unke liye vrat rakha, aur unhe love wale msg bhi kiye. Uss din unka call aaya, aur mujhse directly pooch dala... \'Surbhi, sach batana.. kya tum mujhse pyar karti ho?\' mai bhauchakki rah gai, ye soch k ki unhe kaise pata laga, par smjh nahi pai ki bachi mai hoon, woh nahi, woh smjhte hai lve sms ka meaning, aur unhe bhejne k peeche intensions.
Mujhe smjh nahi aaya mai kya kahu, so bas \'haan\' kah diya, agle hi pal unhone kaha... \'tumhe mujhe pahle kyo nahi bataya, pahle batati to shayad kuch ho jata, par ab kuch nahi\'. Aur unhone phone rakh diya.
Unki ye bat aaj tak mera seena chhalni kar deti hai, ye sauchke ki maine unhe pahle kyo nahi bataya, kyo woh mujhse 9 sal bade the ki unki shadi pahle ho gai. Aur unka ye kahne ka kya meaning tha \' pahle batati to shayad kuch ho jata\', kya woh mujhse pyar/shadi kar lete agar mai pahle batati. In sawalo ka jawab mujhe aajtak nahi mila.
Uss din mai bahut roi, bahut call back kiya unhe par no response, but depress hone pe socha mar jau, so unhe aakhiri sms kiya, batane k liye ki mai unse bahut bahut pyar karti hoon. Par sms karte hi unka call aa gaya, aur bahut smjhaya mujhe, aur kaha mera unhe chahna sahi nahi h, woh already married hai. aur mujhse promise lia ki mai koi suicide karne jaisa galat kadam nahi uthaungi. Maine bhi unse promise lia ki aap bhi mujhse bat karna nahi chhodoge.
Uske bad maine apna promise nibhaya, aur unhone apna. Woh mujhse pahle ki tarah hi bat karte rahe, aur mai ab thoda khul ke unhe apne pyar ka ahsas karane lage kabhi sms aur kabhi cards k through, jiska unhone kabhi response nahi kiya aur bahut bar mujhe ignore kiya. Par unka aisa karna mujhse unse door karne ki bajay aur kareeb lata gaya, mere man me unki ek bahut ache insan k roop me chhavi banne lagi. Kahan to aajkal ke time me koi kisi ka fayda uthane se peeche nahi hatta wahin woh the jo mujhe smjhane aur apne se door rakhne ki koshish karte. Aisa nahi hai ki mai koi badsoorat hoon, bahut se ladke marte the class me, par woh kuch jyada hi shareef the.
Bahut samay k bad as usual maine unhe koi love sms bheja, aur uske turant bad kuch naya hua jo pahle kabhi na hua tha, unka in return msg aaya, ek bahut hi pyar bhari shayri, jiska meaning niklta tha ki \'bas aap hi hamein pyar nahi karte, hum bhi apse pyar karte h\', uss din mai khushi se jhoom uthi. Unhe call lagaya but hamesha ki tarah unhone mujhe ignore kiya. Ignore hi karna tha to sms kyo bheja. Jo bhi hai, mai hamesha uss sms ko khol ke seene se laga liya karti. Unse fir kai dino pe bat bhi hui but fir se normal. Meri taraf se love sms bhejna barabar chalta raha. Fir ek din unhone call pe kaha ki \'mai tumhe hug karna chahta hoon\'... aur kaha ki ab ki bar jab tu ghar aayegi na tab mai tujhe hug karuga.. aur mai shy, introvert kuch na kah pai, aur unhone phone rakh diya. (Unki aadat hi thi, kabhi naraj hoke, ya kabhi kisi aur bat pe achanak phone rakh diya karte the, but uss din k bad ek aur cheese phone achanak se rakhne me shamil ho gai thi). Unki iss bat se mere poore badan me sihran si daud gai, aur mai bas holidays ka besabri se wait karne lagi. Fir aakhir woh din aaya, jab mai unse milne gai, dil me bas yahi khyal tha ki najane kya hoga, but hamesha ki tarah woh poore time normal behave karte rahe, fir maine himmat juta k unhe mujhe hug karne ki bat yad dilai, to unhone thoda chhichkate hue, mujhe halka sa hug kiya. Man kiya ki unhe ache se hug karu, but unhone mauka nahi diya, aur hat gaye. Hamesha ki taraf uss din bhi mujhe pet me dard utha, aur mai ghar chali gai.
Phone pe bat karna jari raha, ek din maine late rat call kiya, laga jaise woh neend me hai, par meri liye woh time sabse pyara sabit hua, jab unhone mujhse kaha, \'Surbhi, I love you\', mai phooli nahi samai, aur kaha, \'please ek bar fir kaho na\'... but long silence aur phone rakh diya.
Woh aur mai dono ajeeb the, jab bhi next time bat karte to hamesha anjano ki tarah se, normal bate, hal chal poochna, kabhi mai himmat nahi karpati unse pyar bhari bat karne ki, aur shayad woh inn sab ko galat man ke koi aisi bat nahi chhedte jo love talks shuru kare.
Fir Holidays me unse kai bar mili, aur ek bar maine unhe kiss karne ki ichcha jahir ki, but mana karne k bad, unhone mujhe kaha, theek hai, i can do. Maine unhe unke galo pe unke mathe pe kiss kiya, aur unke kanpte hotho ko dekha, par maine unke lip kiss/smooch nahi kiya, kyonki tab tak mere man me uss cheese ka ahsas nahi aaya tha, jitna ahsas aaya utna maine kiya, aur chali gai.
Bad me uss pal ko , aur unke kanpte hotho ko yad kar karke mujhpe unko smooch karne ki bhi ichcha jagne lagi. Aur agli mulaqat pe maine himmat karke unhe kah hi diya, pichli bar ki tarah maine unhe mana hi lia, Unhone apne room ki window band ki aur fir maine apne honth unke hothon pe rakh diye, mera pahla smooch tha, so aage ka kam maine nahi bas unhone hi kiya. aaj 7 sal bad bhi Uss pal ki yad karke mere man ki titliya udne lagte h, aur waqt thahar ja jata h.
Mere engineering k first year k bath ke time se, unki wife bhi unke sath rahne lagi, aur hamari bate aur milna kam hota chala gaya, tab jake mujhe unke shadi ho jane ka ahsas ha. tab jake mujhe ahsas hua ki woh mujhe kyo rokte the, kyo ignore karte the, kyon smjhate the, par mai nadan nasmjh kabhi smjh na pai.
Collage me kai ladko se frndship hui, kaiyo se attraction types raha, Unme se ek attraction se shadi bhi ho gai, but pyar kisi se na ho paya. Mere collage time me bhi mujhe mere pyar k bahut sapne aate the, shadi se just pahle bahut jyada badh gaye, to maine mere fiance ko bataya, shadi karne se mana karne ko kaha, but he said \'dont worry, everything will be fine after marriage\'. Par aaj shadi ko 2 sal ho gaye hai, par hamare beech kuch nahi hai, aaj bhi mai ek kunwari hoon, jiski rom rom me koi aur basa hua h, mere hubby woh mere sath ek frnd ki tarah rahte h, best frnd ki tarah bate share karte hai, roommates ki taraf ghar share karte hai, but hum dono physical relationship na to kabhi banaye, na hi ab ek dusre k liye uss tarah ke emotions aate.
I 9, sab kahenge ki mujhe purani jidgi bhula deke nai shuruat karni chahiye, par bahut chahte hue bhi mai apne aap ko uss pyar ki kaid se aajad nahi kar pa rahi hu. Mile huw 5 sal beetgaye unse, par kai mahino bad call kar leti hu, kyonki jarurat hai woh meri, ek ajeeb si energy hai woh meri, jan hai mere sharir ki, jo unse bat kiye bina kam hoti rahti hai, aur fir ek time bad jinda lash si ban jati hu mai.
Mujhe unse mile 5 sal beet gate, par aaj bhi unhi ke sapne aate hai, jaise kahte ho ki woh meri rom rom me bas chuke hai, unhe mujhse alag bas maut hi kar skti hai. 2 salo me unhone mujhe mera pahla kiss, mera pahla sparsh, pahla hug aur pahle pyar ka ahsas karaya. Aur ek aur ahsas tha, jiske karan mujhe unse milne pe pet dard hota tha, badan kanp uthta tha, uss ahsas ka matlab mai bahut late samjh pai.
Ye kahani agar unn tak kabhi pahunche to jyada kuch nahi bas kuch sawaloka Jawab chahti hoon...
1. Un dino jab bhi mujhe apke sapne aate the tab aap kahte the \'kyonki mai tujhe yad karta hoon isliye tujhe mere sapne aate hai\'... to kya aap aaj bhi mujhe har dusre-teesre din yad karte hai?
2. Neend me chahe, apne 1-2 bar express kiya ki you love me, kya woh jhooth tha, aur sach tha to bas ek bar khul ke mujhe kah do ki \'haan, aap bhi mujhe pyar karte ho/the\'. Sach jane bina mera dil har pal marta hai, I beg you please sach kah do, mujhe apke na kahne ka bhi bura nahi lagega.
3. Apne kaha tha ... \'Agar maipahle batati to shayad kuch...\', iska arth mujhe apse aapse sunna hai. kya aap mujhse shadi karte?
4. Unn almost 1 and half year, mai apko har 2-3 din me call karti rahi, apse chori se milne aati, mai to bachi thi, khud ki feelings nahi smjh pai, par kya aap bhi nahi smjh paye kabhi, ya na samjh bante rahe?
5. Apne mujhe samjhake kaha tha ki time ke sath sab theek ho jayega, mai to apko bhool bhi jaungi, aaj 7 salo bad bhi mai nahi bhooli, bataiye na mai kya karu? kuch nahi bata sakte to apna promise hi wapis le lo, shayad mar ke hi apko pa loon.
6. Kya aap mujhse bas ek bar, bas ek bar pyar karoge? Mujhe sampoorn hone ka ahsas sirf ek bar de paoge? i promise, mai apki jindagi me fir kabhi na aaungi.
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Mun ki shanti dundh rahi hoon, sirf apki Surbhi
13 comments:
this is the best love story in the world,,,,,,,,,
ye pet dard kyu hota hai pls aa rply karke mujhe bata do mujhe nhi pata or kisi se puch bhi nhi sakti so pls aap bata do,,,,,,,,or aapki luv story sabse acchi hai bhagwan kare vo aapko jald hi mil jaye
Are surbhi tum unhe kyun bhul nahi pa rahe pata hai because o tumhara pahela pyar hai aur insan mar jayega lekin apna pahela pya kabhi bhul nahi payega .....aur ye jo pet dard wali bat hai i think tum unhe dilon jaan se chahti thi magar kisi bat se darti thi..but plz reply ki now whats ur life....but one think is there that is
god hamein o nahi deta jo hamein accha lagta hai god hamein o deta hai jo hamare liye acha ho so beliee on god.....bus itna hi pray karunga ki o tumhe ek bar mile jaroor aur o sub batein karein jo apko sunne ki echa hoti hai.....plz keep smiling and be positive ...hamein unse pyar karna chahiye jo hamein pyar karta ho na ki..kyun o hi hamein khush rakh sakta hai......bye and plz reply because maine sub comment dekhe magar kisi ko koi reply nahi mila are yarr hum bhi itna time nikal kar tumhein comment or salah dete hai tumhein reply dena to padega na as a insaniyat ke nate se...ok bye ..reply haan ...and daily pray to jejus kyun o tumhari har ek iccha puri karega.bus ek bar pray karke dekho u willl believe .......bye...
I am sorry... jis din socha ki apni kahani kahin likh du, ye blog mila aur likh di, but later i forgot the name of blog, after searching a lot i found it again today, thats why i could not reply before. Thank you for such nice comments, thanks for your prayers for me. But i know he will never be mine, he will never meet me, and that's the truth of my life, and I have to bear it.. I wish, koi chamtkar ho jaye, bas ek din, sirf ek din k liye woh mere ban jaye, uss ek din me apni poori jindgi unke sath jee lena chahti hu, unse apne dil ki har bat kar lena chahti hu, apne har sawal ka jawab sunna chahti hu. fir uske bad jidgi me koi afsos nahi rahega. Uske bad jindgi aur apni life ka har sach accept kar lungi. But please bas ek bar....
Sometimes i feel ki ab to ya mujhe bas unki jarurat h ya fir kisi psychiatrist ki.
@Anonymous
sorry, cant tell you ki dard kyo hota hai, bas itna jaan lo ki ye pyar ko extremely feel karne ki body ki ek jid hai, ek symptom hai, aur use na pane ka side effect.
Ise koi dawai ya doctor theek nahi kar skta, ise to bas wahi door kar skta h jisse ladki extremely pyar karti ho.
:> true love..surbhi i like it...but never mind.....just feel lucky your self that he was part of your life..pay thanx to god..and try 2 keep ur husband happy..just coz of ur fate d0nt let him suffer..G0D BLESS U
hi me aaryan shekh
ma sikar se hu me aap ki hlp kar na cahta hu to plz us ka mobile no sms ma send kar do plz plz plz
aap se bada kar ta hu aap ka payar se mela doga..........my no 09636318158.....?so so so so plz reply me is no pe kar dena ok ji......by love guru?
us boy ka mobile nob send me plz 09636318158
Dear Surbhi,
I respect your felling & emotions. as well as i would like to give Bravo your Husband that he understand your feelings.
You should Happy that your love live in this world and u can pray for him for his best future.
But My Love Leave me alone in this world forever. पर जीना तो पड़ता है ना
See Your life BE positive and Go ahead Lively.
जिंदगी में एक बार कभी
यह एहसास हों जाता है ,
न चाहते हुए भी अक्सर ,
किसी से प्यार हों जाता है ........!!
... फिर हर लम्हा खुशगवार हों जाता है..!
दिल तो पागल ही हो जाता है ,
उनसे जुड़ा हर लम्हा
हर तिनका संजो के रखना चाहता है !!
पर वक़्त की आंधी और किस्मत का तूफां
साहिल से पहले ही
सब कुछ बहा कर ले जाता है !!
......और किसी अधखिले फूल की तरह ,
पहला प्यार अक्सर अधूरा रह जाता है ..........!
For More u can Share your feelings on My Facebook Group
"First Love Never Forget"
http://www.f.connect.facebook.com/#!/groups/firstloveuneverforget/
its ok surbhi...........thnx jitna bhi aapne mujhe bataya.........n ye mere dil ki sacchi dua hai ki vo aapko jaldi hi mile,,,,,,,,,,,,,bhagwan kare aapko vo dher sara pyar de..................
thnxxx surbhi 4 telling about this pet dard ........i will pray 2 god 2 give u ur happiness- ur love.......n pls keep smiling ......pls pls jindagi me bahot sari problems hoti hai par hume jina hi padta hai ........isliye khush ho kar jiyo ......ok be happy....
@Aryan, I appreciate your feelings and desire of helping me. I would like to give u his no., but i dont want to bother him, I am not that much selfish, I know he has a family, a wife and now 2 cute childs too. This is the tragedy that i cant even help out myself too.
Anyways, I would like to dedicate a song to him , feels like this song has been written only for me...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ws2gJQ8iljw
Apne dil ki aawaj ki do lines bas unke liye...
Woh kahte hai, bhula denge hum unhe ek din
Woh kahte hai, bhula denge hum unhe ek din
Unhe koi kaise samjhaye,
Jo ruh me bas jate hai, unhe hum kya ye maut bhi juda nahi kar skti.
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