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uske bina zindgi aaj bhi adhuri lagti hai - janvi mishra

Hello frnds,
Maine nhi janti ki mai aap se apni baaten share karu ki bhi b-coz ye bahot difficult hota hai ek ladki ke liye kisi unknown insaan par wishwaas karna. Ye wahi janti hai jiska normally koi insaan bharosa tod deta hai….Magar yaha waisa nhi hai, aaj mai is blog ke jhariye apolozise karna chahti hu 
Shayad mai janti hu ki bhagwan bhi meri is galti ko kabhi bhi maaf nhi karenga magar jitni bhi zindgi hai mai sirf prathna karungi ko ajay kuch rahe, maine use bahot jyada taklif di hai…. Akhir kya kasoor hai uska? Yahin…. Ki wo mujhse pyr karta hai…. Mujhse shadi karna chahta hai…..khushi dena chahta hai… akhir kyun bhagwan ne mujhe aise mod par khada kiya hai ki mai chah kar bhi uski pareshani…. Uski taklif dur nhi kar sakti… kyunki mai dil se majbur bhi….akhir kyun bhagwan ne meri kismat aisi likhi hai ki mai chah kar bhi apne khushi ke bare me nhi soch sakti…. Aur agar soch bhi liya to shayad use pura nhi kar sakti….
Ajay aur meri mulakat college me hue thi. Wo mere frnd k bf k frnd the. Bahot hi silent thaw o, jaise maano bahot nadaan ho, nasamaj ho, aur kya kahu mai…bus simple aur siddha-sadha ladka tha wo… usne mujhse first meeting me kuch bhi nhi kahan, usne to mujhse baat tak nhi ki thi, woe k engineer tha, meri classmate Sarita ke through hum dono ki frndship hue thi…dusre meeting me hum frnds milkar drive par gaye the. Mai Sarita, Ajay, sarita ka boyfrnd(Ravi), aur ek frnd Zayeer tha sath me, hum sab milkar ek car me long drive par gaye the. Ye sabhi mere liye unknown the because mai sarita ko bhi sirf ek saal se janti thi wo bhi ek casual mulakat hoti thi. Wo kabhi bhi college regularly nhi aya karti thi. Uska boyfrnd Ravi, mai use thik se nhi janti thi par usko dekh kar first time aisa laga tha ki shayad wo Sarita ke uncle hai… par jab us idiot ne mujhe Ravi ko as her boyfrnd introduce kiya … so for a little bit of moment I was completely shocked….maine socha shayad is ke piche kuch arur koi reason honga, kyunki jitna mai janti thi sarita ko she was not like this, uski taste itni bhi kharaab nhi ho sakti hai ki wo kisi uncle ko apna boyfrnd bana le… Quite shocking…. Ravi ne ek lodge type hotel me khana khane k liye roka tha…. There he booked abig room so that we can spend and enjoy as like picnic. Lekin ye sab mere liye naya tha… mujhe nhi pata tha ki unke mind me kya hai aur kya nahi… suddenly Ravi ordered a drink for the boys, And I started feeling uncomfortable….. Na jane kyun ajay ko laga ki Ravi galat kar rha hai, kyunki ladki ke samne drink karna….! Par fir Ravi strted abusing his sentence….Sarita ne apne liye cold drink offer ki aur Na jaane kaise Ravi aur uske frnd zayeer ne us me hard drink mix kar ke hume pila di…..I was not comfortable with that, I started being unconscious. so I just went inside the wash room to just put down some water on my head and my face, but still my eyes were not ready to see what was happening inside the room, I just thought that sarita an! d his bo yfrnd wanted to spend some time in that lodge however I understand that and I went outside , so that I can rest for a while in the car alone.
Magar mujh me itni energy nhi thi ki mai chal saku, to mujhe us moment ajay ne bahot jyada sahara diya, usne mujhe car me bithaya, aur apne hankerchief se mere sir ko pocha as like he was my boyfrnd and wanted to keep me safe beside him.. jab us sharab ka nasha thoda thoda kam hone laga to maine maine apne mobile me time dekha, it was 5 pm, mai late ho gayi thi, aur shayad ghar jane k baad kya honga shayasd ye bhi maine soch liya tha….maine Ajay ko kaha ki mujhe ghar jana hai to wo Sarita ko le kar aye…..jab wo car se bahar gayan to main thoda rest le rhi thi suddenly Sarita ka boyfrnd Ravi car me aya tha and he thought ki mai nashe m hu and he started abusing me.. jab mujhe hosh aya to maine use dekha aur kahan ki mujhe ghar jana hai… he went out of the car, aur baad me sabhi log wapis aye….mujhe ek hi baat ka bura laga ki Ravi ne nashe ki halat me dekh kar mera use karne ka socha but he was not successful….
Ek tarah se bol sakte ho ki maine us samay chup rhna jyada important samjha because hum sab ek aise jagah par the jahan par koi bhi nhi tha…out side the city, kuch bhi ho sakta tha, mere sath, Sarita ke sath… aur shayad help ke liye aas-paas koi bhi nhi rhta….ghar par jab mai wapis ayi thi to maine imagine bhi nhi kiya tha ki mummy mujhe itna chillayengi…. Par aise hona bhi chchiye, be-coz main galat thi and I know ki mere sath aisa hi hona chahiye….. us hadse k baad mai khud ko sambhal nhi pa rhi thi kyunki aisa lag rha tha ki agar us situation me kuch aur hua rhta to mai kya karti? Shayad mai zinda bhi nhi rhti…… I would have completely lost my life….. ek hafta beet kyat ha, par mai is situation ko bhul hi nhi paa rhi thi… mai puri tarah se toot gayi thi aur mann me ek darr baith gaya tha ki kaise ab mai bahar himmat k sath jau, us duniya me to log bhediye ki tarah apne shikaar ke talash me rhte hai, ki kab koi ladki sunsaan jagah par mile, aur wo apne hawas ki bhukh mitaye….. ye mai kya soch rhi hu, Ek hafte se maine kisi ka bhi call receive nhi kiya tha.
Mere cousin sister ne mujhe ghar par aa kar pucha ki kya hua, ek pal me na jane kitne aasuon ko dekh kar wo bhi ghabra gayi ki jarur kuch bahot bura hua hai…. Maine use puri baat batayi… usne mujhe thodi himmat di mai wo hadse ko bhula sakun…..dusre din maine apna cell check kiya to mere boyfrnd lucky ke uncountable miscall the.. aur Sath me sarita aur Ajay ke bhi…. Maine Lucky se baat karna jyada jaruri samjha, kyunki hum dono ka relation 5 saal se tha, par mann me aisa laga ki wo kya samjhenga? Kitni galiya denga? Mai already itni upset hu aur wo mujhe aur upset karenga, blackmail karenga……
Lucky aur mera 5 saal ka relation hai aur us 5 saal me na jaane humne kine baar ek dusre k sath breakup kiye the….mai use dil se chahti thi par uske paas mere liye wqt hi nhi tha. Wo humesha apne kaam me busy rhta tha jaise mere mann mein aisi feeling ati thi ki shayad wo mujhe avoid kar rha hai, jaise he doesn’t love me at all. Jaise maine use phone kiya, he started using areugent language for me….maine use apne hadse k bare me kuch bhi nhi bataya, aur kahan ki mai bimaar thi, so he wanted to meet me at once… mai use mila…. And thank god he excepted that I was still not well… jab mai ghar wapis ayi mera phone phir se bajhna start ho gaya, it was ajay, maine uska call receive koya aur I started blaming him for the whole story which was caused that afternoon… ajay ko nahi malum tha ki Ravi ne mere sath kuch aisa karne ki koshish kit hi… usko meri baton ka itna bura laga, kyun laga ye main hi janti thi, shayad wo mujhe dil se pyr karne laga tha, usne us galti ki sazaa khud ko di.. usne apne hathon ki nas kaat di…. mujhe ye bilkul bhi malum nhi tha… aur jab Sarita ne bataya…Mujhe kuch samajh nhi rha tha ki mai kya karun…. I didn’t know him completely, to main uske ghar kaise jati….Maine use phone kiya aur use baat ki, I explained him how muched I remembered about that afternoon incident….
Ajay ne mujhe bataya ki Sarita ek achchi ladki nhi hai, wo sirf paison se pyr karti hai, and nothing else…. Ravi wo bhi ek criminal aur married person hai, sarita sirf uske paison k liye uske sath hai, she was with other people too, just like bloody prostitute…..aur shayad Sarita ne apne boyfrnd se paise liye honge to just use me……jab ye sab baaten mere samne ayi, mai bilkul akela mehsus karne lagi, koi nhi tha mere sath me aur mai shayad us samay akele hi rhna chahti thi….mai samajh nhi paa rhi thi ki mai kya karu…..ek paal k liye lag rha tha ki ajay bhi usi me shamil tha, because wo unka frnd hai na to shayad is plan me wo bhi unke sath honga…
Frnds, aap soch rhe honge ki ye kahani adhuri kyun hai but jab tak koi reply nhi milta aap ki taraf se mai is kahani ko aage nhi likh sakti….ye isliye, b-coz mujhe aap sab ke help ki jarurat hai, mujhe ek strength ki….ek unity ki jarurat hai jo mujhe help karengi mere faisle mein …. So plz mail me and answer me whether I should continue or not….

Thank you
 







42 comments:

Anonymous said...

plzzzz post your complete storyyy ....god bless u ..bbyeeeee.........

Mahi said...

Hii,I know ki how u feelin nw bt i think u have to forget ur past and live in ur present, start ur lyf again for your parents and please dnt talk to sarita, ravi and ajay too, if he was right thn he has to inform you before incident nt after...i knw its difficult to forget. bt atleast try to kar hi sakti ho...

Shubham said...

I agree with you

adya singh said...

enjoy future dear sab ka past hota hai life me bt ajay is true careing person so pls be with him yrrr,,dnt wry jisse apke liye time nahe to kya mtlb???wo incident bhul jaeye nd pehle brkup kariye nd clear kariye sab then with ajay okkk nd enjoy life,,,josh me hosh mat khona bt plss.tkcr

Atif said...

Hii janvi m ye kehna chahta hu ki mahi ji bilkul thik keh rahi hai ..aap apne past ko bhul jaiye aur apne aane wale kal ke baare m sochye ....

Bahut log hote hai aise jinke saath kuch na kuch aisa hota hai janha wo bhid m bhi apne aapko akela mehsus karta hai aapke saath toh bahut galat hua jaisa kisi ka vishwas chkna chur ho jana but my friend zindagi jine ke liye hosle bulnd karne padte hai..
Please countinuas u r story bay and take care...

muzdalifa sukri said...

Hi

muzdalifa sukri said...

Ajay se frnd ship karlo

Aashik ali said...

wow yaar kya love story hai........... agar is story par ek movie bane to super duper hit ho jaye
accha wese ajay accha insan hai yaar agar ushne tumhe sab kuch bataya hai un logo k baare main ishka matlab ye he ki aapse pyar karta hai wo aur aage aapko taklif main nahi dekhna chahta hai wo yahi ki un sab logo se aapko bacha kar rakhna chahta hai
aur haaaaaaaaa ek baat meri taraf se kabhi bhi kisi bhi dost k bulane par akele nahi jana agar jaao to kisi apne ko saath main le jaao is baar to bach gai kya pata dobara naa bach paao kyu frine's i'm right naaaaaaaa
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Shahi Hashmi said...

Dnt cntinue. Enjoy ur life. Forget past.

VIJAY BHAI said...

so agree

pradeep raikwr said...

pahle bat to y he ki pls is story ko pura kro pl;s mujhe puri story read karni h us ajey ke bare m puri tarha s janna h fir kya hua

Anonymous said...

story ko pura karo mera b aapki tarah ek bhut bura past h lekin maine himmat nhi haari apni life ka samna kiya

Abdul Khadeer said...

plzzz continue maam i want to know that, whatis ajay is in the plan or not plzzzzzzzz continue

vinod kumar prajapati said...

Janvi ji.. mein shayar hoon so aapko kuch batana chahta hoon..

apane Dil pe Haath rakho aur Aankhe band karke socho BF,AJAY ke bare me. phir aankhe kholo tab jike liye feelings hogi wohi hoga tumhara pyaar...!! so forget your past and go for getting your dreams..!!

vinod kumar prajapati said...

ajanabi hoke bhi jann ban gaye,

tum paas hoke bhi ajan ban gaye,

ruh me basaya tujhe jabse pyaar kiya,

kuch hi lamho ki baat aur tum mere rag rag me dorte khoon ban gaye...!!

Anonymous said...

first just complete the story ok then only we can help hu ok

aditi chauhan said...

Hi, janvi ap apna past bhulkr future ki socho..

aditi chauhan said...

Hi, janvi hw r u? sabse pehle toh me ye kahungi ki ap apne past ko bhulane ki koshish kro, or sarita & ravi se contact khatam kr do halanki ajay may be acha ladka hoga kyunki ussne apke sath kuch galat nhi kiya jabki wo kr sakta tha lekin ap ajay se baat krna chahte ho ya nhi ye apka decision h kyunki kuch galtiyan uski v h ki wo apko car me akela choda jabki wo sarita or ajay k bare me janta tha kher agr ap pure grp se contact tod do toh ap is baat ko bhula paogi warna ajay k jariye ye baat ap bhul nhi paoge or jo apka bf h jiske paas apke liye tme nhi h uske bare me jyada mat sochooo ap apni fmily k sath apni life ko enjoy kro, so plzzz apne past ko bhula kr future k bare me socho bhagwan apki life me sab acha krenge... byeee & tk care.....

VIJAY BHAI said...

so thardcllas girl .
teri jaisi bevakhufh mujhe bhi mili thee . kuda kare kisi or ko na milyae .

Anonymous said...

how r u janvi? plz tension mat lo, sab theek ho jay ga, agar aap sarita ko achay se jantay nahi thay toh aap gay kyu? janvi dhuniya bahut kharab hai, yaha boys se zada girls kharab hai, girls pe trust nahi kar saktay toh boys toh bahut dur ki baat hai, plz sarita se bilkul cut off kar do, aur ajay se be, agar ajay acha ladka hota toh apko aisay insaan kay sath janay nahi detha aur na he apko drink peenay detha, vo pehlay he apko mana kar detha, jab hum kisi se pyar kartay hai toh hum uspe thodi se aanch nahi anay dethay, agar vo pyar karta hota toh apkay sath yeh nahi hota, aur apko kaisay pta ajay ne apni nass kati hai, kya apnay apni ankho se dekha? sarita ne kaha na? plz sarita ki kisi be baat pe trust mat karna, be brave, m apkay sath hu, mujsay baat karo, m apko advice karugi, jaha tak ho saka apki help karugi, apni story continue karo, phr he m apki help kar sakugi, plz dont worry, apki sirf ek galti hai, ki apnay bina sochay samjay vaha gay aur koi galti nahi hai, isnay apnay aap ko blame mat karna

Vikash Sharma said...

koi fayda nhi ye sab kar ke..apne purane b'frnd ko pyaar se samjhao.wo tumhe ignore nhi kar raha hai balki tum usse majbur kar deti ho aisa karne k liye.kya jarurat tha apne b'frnd ko bina bataye jane ka??jab ja rahi thi to bahut khush hogi?apne b'frnd ko shamil kiya apne khushi me?aur jab taklif hua to usse kharab bolti ho.ajay ne nass kata to pyar karta hai aur tumhari galtiyo k liye tumhara b'frnd kuch bole to ignore karta hai??tumhara b'frnd to tumhara dushman hai na kyuki vo acha sochta hai tumhare liye.5 yers tum apne b'frnd k sath rahi,but uske kisi dost ne tumhare sath badtamiji ki hai???nahi na,bcoz he cares 4 u & sab ko pata hai ki you both love each other.do tarah ke insaan hote hai duniya me ek cheen ke lene wale aur dusra pyar me fansakar lene wale.tumne ajay ko bataya ki u r engaged????ye ajay 2nd type ka insaan hai jo pyar se tumhara istemal karega.agar tumhare jagah koi aur larki hoti jo dekhne me sundar nahi hoti tab bhi kya ajay uski help karta???jab vo aise dosto ke sath reh sakta hai to vo shareef hai iski gurantee kaun dega???apne old b'frnd pe dhyan do aur life cont... karo.jo jyada pyar karta hai wahi jyada gaali bhi deta hai...aur agar mera baat tumhe karwa lag raha hai ya lagta hai tum ajay ko jyada ache se pehchanti ho to jo karna hai karo.

Regards & Thanks

Vikash Kumar Sharma

(Siliguri)

Ashish Verma said...

aap ne es me apni id nahi likhi to kaise mail kaurn

Anonymous said...

me bs apko yahi suggest krungi ke ajay is not gud person so dont try to make any relationship with him. aur ap apne purane bf ko samjho aur unhe samjhane ke koshish kro. is life me me ajnabi person pr kbhi trust mat kro kyoki yaha par use krne wale bht h. aur pyar krne wale bht kam milenge

Anonymous said...

and i also thanks to vikas ji he gives bvery gud suggestion aur ye bat sahi bhi h jo ankho me ansu deta h wo he dil k bht kareeb hota h aur agar hum kisi ko dil se pyar kre to wo kbhi n kbhi to humari feelings ko samjhega .wo change hua to kya hua uske pas humare liye time nhi h to koi bta nhi hum to use time de skte h na

Anonymous said...

Taslim Shaikh said; Plz tumahari zindgi ke ye dasta puri likho. Plz Plz

Aditya Tiwari said...

Hi Janvi hows you now?????????
Jaha tak mujhe lagta hai Vikash ji bilkul sahi keh rahe hain. Lucky ji hi apka real boy frnd ho sakte hain kyoki unhone kabhi apke sath ya apke frnd k sath kabhi galat nhi kiya. Wo to apko dil se chahte hain par sayad aap hi unhe thik se nhi pehchan payi. Aaj k samay me har kisi k sath kuch na kuch bura jarur hota hai jo hame ek bahot bada sabak sikha jata hai aur hame bahot buri tarah tod undar hi undar tod deta hai. Main apki probelam ko samajh sakta hu ki us samay apke upar kya biti hogi. Jo bit gaya so bit gaya hum use dubara wapas to nhi la sakte behtar yahi hai k aap us group k sare logo ko bhulakar ek naye life ko start kar sakti ho aur aap chaho to khali samay me painting, dancing ya koi aur hobby classes kar sakti ho jo apko kuch der k liye hi sahi par ek sachchi khushi jarur degi. Aap apne aap ko akela feel na karo hum sab apke sath hain par main ek bat janana chahta hu kya apne kabhi is ghatna k bare me apne parents ya apne boyfrnd lucky ko bataya agar ha to iske bad unka kya reaction tha plz continue ur story if Lucky Still loves u having heard these all, u won`t believe u r really a very lucky girl......... With lot`s of love. Aditya.
My email id:- lovingaditya83@gmail.com
Contact no. 8540922608
Jab v kisi problam me ho plz ek mail kar dena ya call kar dena..............

Anonymous said...

janvi plz story continue karo, i m waiting for u, m be ek ladki hu, i really want to help u

Aditya Tiwari said...

Janvi plz continue ur story we r waiting............
Aditya..........

sagar gawade said...

hi janhvi i am gawade sagar . i read your story . i like your story.

Anonymous said...

hey sacha pyaar bohot muskil se milta hai use jane mat do you very lucky janhvi so plz continue.

Anonymous said...

Hey janvi. .tmhri story padhi yr so sad yr bt bs itna khna h k ham bs is story k basis pe tmhe suggest kr skte h bt story to tmhri h n tm jada ache se is bat ko samaj sakti ho k kn sahi h or kn galat. .ham ye ni khnge k tm apne bf se breakup krlo or ajay ko bf bnalo bcoj ho skta h k lucky tmhe sch m pyr krta ho n uske pas real m time na ho.5yrs kafi matter krte h agar pyr na hota to syd 5month tk na chalta bt yr tmhri life think abt lucky n ajay also n then tk a right decision al d bst n tc n in last concentrate on ur career vo jada imp h. .k.bi bi

sushant said...

Haj Janvi ...Jo Hua Theek Nhi Hua :But Bina puri Story Sune Bina Koi Aap Ki Kaise Help Kr Sakta Hai ?

Anonymous said...

kya aapne ajay ko nas katne ke bad dekha tha? nas katne se koi v 1 ghante ke andar hi mar jata hai.jab usne nas kata hoga tb apne gharwalo se chup kr kata hoga jab ghar pe koi ni ho tab then who saved him?jab usne nas kata hoga to kisi hospital me admit hua hoga tab aapko kisine nahi btaya.tab aap usse mil skti thi.
i think usne aapse jhooth bola use pta tha ki aap uske ghar ni aa sakti kyoki aap unhe achche se ni janti.agar aap jati tb v o apko jhoota patti bandh kr dikha skta tha.
better hai aap apne bf ko smjhe.mai v phle yahi sochti thi but jab se mujhe job hua i understand his problem.aap lucky g ko sari bate bta dijiye may be he will scold u but if he trully loves u then he will help u to come out from this problem.but if he left u then go ahead.aur sari bate aap apni maa se kah digiye.then no one can blackmail u.maa aapko kitna v dante par dukh ke smay sbse jyada sath wahi deti hai.unse jyada pyar aapse koi ni kar skta.

Pinky aa said...

hi janvi,
I thik Ajay aap se jhut kaha hai. Hum jaysi ledki ke sath ajay jayse ledka missuses karte hai. mai bhi pyr me dhoka khaya. Aap ka story meri story same hai
Pinky
My email id:- pinky6935@gmai.com

Ajay said...

Hi janvi...my name is ajay....:)
bt janvi dont take any decison only 4 urself...lucky k baare me bhi sochna...if he dose'nt love u...to apka or lucky ka relatiom 5 yrs tk rehta hi ni... Agr aap yaha ajay ka saat deti ho to think about lucky...uska kya hoga...
ajay111188@gmail.com

Anonymous said...

your life your rules your way.You know what is right, u feel that every now and then.So take any decision accordingly. my mail: pk3971@gmail.com

sanjay kulshreshtha said...

hi janvi/how/are/you/my/self/sanjay/from/lucknow.janvi ji/ab in bato ko bhula kar apne family ke bare me sociye kyoki aapki ke karan hi aapki pahachan hai.bagwan ne kare ki us samay aapke shatha galat ho sakta tha. lekin esha kuch nahi hua/aur ajay ko ek dost ki taraha se usko samjaye.payer khuda ki den hai.main bhi ek ladki se bahoot payer karta hoo.kyoki uska naam poonam hai.payer matlab pana nahi hai.payer ka matlab khona bhi hota hai.

Vimal Jadon said...

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Ishu said...

Janvi I agree with u aur ajay sahi hai

anilesh mishra said...

kuch log kamina hota h but sab nhi

Nishikant Tiwari said...

Hi Janvi,

Iske pahle ki mai kuchh aur kahu congrats u have good writing skill.Keep writing.Your story is heart touching.

Jara socho bahut muskil hai is duniya me achhe log milna to kya hum baith ke aansu bahate rahe ?Tum usi ki care karo aur pyaar karo jo tumhe pyaar kare .Puri kahani bataogi to shayd kuchh keh pau par ek baat to tai hai - Chahe Ajay doshi ho ya nahi ye to mai nahi jaanta per yaar jo insaan khud ki raksha nahi kar sakta kya tumhaari kar payega ? I mean he need to grow up. Hum kewal emotions par hi har faisla nahi le sakte na ,baki chize bhi matter kertin hain .

Take care

MOJIB said...

HI janvi apna bita hua kal ko samne lakar ane wala kal kyun kharab kar rahe ho , so dont write any more

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