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Don\\\'t love, love z painful;-( - Ankush

Hlo friends my name is ankush, n m from palampur himachal pradesh.
Baat 4 years pehle ki hai jb maine BCA mein admision li thi ludhiana mein, model town mein rent par maine ek room n kichan liya tha, mein starting se padne mein kam n shararto mein jyada hosiyar tha, bebajah pange lene mein bada mazza aata tha.. Meri class mein ek ladki thi Shivani jo ki bot jyada cute, sweet n khatarnak, cute dekhne mein, sweet uski voice n eyes, n khatarnak uska gussa, meri usse bot baar ladai hue, ek baar to humne kam se kam one month tak ek dusre se baat ni ki, colz mein mera best friend tha Rajveer from moga inteligent n dil ka saaf... Uski sis. ki marrige thi n hum sabhi wahan jane wale the, mein rajveer pehle hi chale gaye becz shadi ka kaam n all... jis din shadi thi us din meine n rajveer dono ne thodi thodi beer chada li, colz k sare friend wahan pohuch gaye, fir to dj, dance n masti us din shivani ne black saarie pehni thi, n us din to kya lag rai thi vo words nai hein mere pass? maan kar raha tha ki abhi usko propose kar du n haan kar de to abhi shadi kar lu, lekin uska gusse se mujhe b darr lagta tha, us din mein uske pass gaya n bola, \" shivani sorry meine tumse us din ladai ki pata nai bot dino se sorry bolne ki try kar raha tha but aj mokka mila\". Usne ek cweet si smile di n boli,\" its okey ankush\" fir mein wahan se jane laga usne bola,\"ankush wait\" me shocked vo mere pass ayi n dhere se boli\" ankush kam piya karo\"! Mein kaha,\" aj k baad touch b nai karuga\"! us din se uske pyar mein aisa pada ki pehle se b jyada nikama ho gaya, uske hostel k bahar bike lekar gediyan marna, colz-bus k piche piche bike dodana, yai roj ka kaam ho gaya, n fir dashere k ek do din k baad use dekha, n sidhe jakr propose kar diya, pehle vo hansi n boli,\"ankush mazak chodo\" meine kaha,\" mein serius hu, n i love u shivani\". N humesa ki tarah patttakkk sbke samne thapad! N 2-4 baaten sunayi n chali gayi, fir sham ko ghar pohche, mein n rajveer do bottle wiskey, pe gaye, n raat ko 1-2 bje usko phone kiya, pehle ph. Nai uthaya usne, fir 3-4 rings k bd usne phone uthaya n boli,\" kyu raa! t ko tan g kar rahe ho mujhe\" meine sidhe bola reason kya hai,\"usne bola mujhe in sb chijo mein koi intrest nai\" meine kaha,\" yeh koi resn nai hua\"! Fir usne bola dekho ankush,\" tum mere type k nai ho, tumhe ladai jhagda pasand hai, nasha karte ho, dhang se study nai karte, koi ek sunaye to use 2 suna doge\"! Meine kaha,\"agar mein change ho jau to\"? Usne bola ki, \"fir kuch soch sakti hu K ab so jao n g.n.\"! Meine b kaha, \"g.n\"! Fir mein jakr bed par late gaya n sari bt rajveer ko btayi. Usne bola,\" thek to bol rai hai yeh, tu usko change hokr dikha de agar fir b usne mana kiya to mein dekh lunga\"! Rajveer ki baat mein dum tha, fir mein dhere dhere khud ko sudharne laga, ladai jhagda bilkul band, regular classes attend karne laga, smoking drinking sab chod diya... December ka time hamare final exam chal rahe the last exam tha, n meine use bola ki ab to mein change ho gaya hu, ab kya decide kiya, usne bola result ayega tb btaugi, gussa aya bot jyada but control kiya... Uske baad holidayz, vo b apne ghar chali gayi, n mein b apne ghar aa gaya, palampur se hamirpur 35to40km tha kai baar wahan gaya ki darshan ho jaye uske but nai hue, bdi mushkil se holiday finish hue mein ldh return aya colz mein aakr dekha to ayi hi nai, ek week wait kiya do week samaj nai aya kya hua, kyu nai ayi, meine and rajveer ne uske ghar jaane ka plan banaya, rajveer ki gf thi kamalpreet kaur, vo b sath jane ko ready ho gayi plan tha subha 5 bje niklege n sham 5-6 bje tak return aa jayege, kisi friend ki car lekr morning time se nikal gaye, hamirpur pohuch kar edhar udhar pata karke unke ghar pohuch gaye, unke ghar k bramde mein budhi c lady baithe thi\"humne unse pucha ki kya yeh shivani ka ghar hai,\"to unhone bola,\"hanji yai ghar hai\" humne kaha ki hum,\"ldh se aye hein uske colz mein sath padte hein, vo ayi nai colz to pata karne yahan aa gaye\" tbi bahan uske mom aye n,\"she was crying\", unhone btaya ki \"2 week pehle shivani ka bus k sath accident ho gaya n vo ab is duniya mein nai hai\" yeh sun kar pata nai mera dim! ag sunn gaya, aisa lag raha tha jaise mind ne kaam karna band kar diya hu, heart zor zor se beat kar raha, hum teeno hi control nai kar paye n khub roye! Vo dard vo pain itni buri thi ki kabhi kisi dusman k sath b aisa na ho, uske bd pata nai kyu mera damm ghutne laga, n aunty ko bola \"apna dhyan rakhna n wahan se chale aye\"! Us din se bhagwan se bharosa uth gaya mera mein nastik ban gaya, meine 2 baar sucide karne ki koshish ki but dono baar bach gaya, rajveer ne kaha ki shivani ki roh hi tujhe har baar bachati hai, vo b nai chahti ki tu duniya chode, rajveer aj b mere sath hai n mera dard ko samjhta hai! shivani chahe jis duniya mein ho but mere sath hai, mere khayalo mein aj b jinda hai, aj yeh story likhte time aj fir mein bot roya, agar pyar mohabt bhagwan likhta hai to yai wish karta hu k kbhi kisi k sath aisa na ho. I wish sabko unka pyar mile, love u alot Shivani<3 







20 comments:

Shailesh Gupta said...

Hi Ankush, maine tumhari kahani padi mujhe bhut dukh hua. Mai bhi kisi se apni jaan se jyada chahta hu. Isliye mujhe tumhare pyar yakin hai. Bhagwan se yahi kahunga ki Shivani ji jis duniya me ho hamesha aapke sath rahe. Aur agle janm me aap dono jarur milo. Bhagwan kisi dusman k sath bhi aisa na kare. Waise mai wiswas k sath kah sakta hu ki Shivani apko haan jarur bolti.
Plz try to contact me my no. Is 9451950715
Shailesh gupta.Hi Ankush, maine tumhari kahani padi mujhe bhut dukh hua. Mai bhi kisi se apni jaan se jyada chahta hu. Isliye mujhe tumhare pyar yakin hai. Bhagwan se yahi kahunga ki Shivani ji jis duniya me ho hamesha aapke sath rahe. Aur agle janm me aap dono jarur milo. Bhagwan kisi dusman k sath bhi aisa na kare. Waise mai wiswas k sath kah sakta hu ki Shivani apko haan jarur bolti.
Plz try to contact me my no. Is 9451950715
Shailesh gupta.

Shailly said...

Hey Ankush,u hv realy a big heart nd u r true lover...lover...

Shailly said...

Cn u snd me ur email id? Plz Cn u snd me ur email id? Plz

neela rose said...

dont worry yar..
tumne suchcha pyar kiya he wo is dunya me nahe to us duniya me tumhare hoge dear..
tum jinda ho matlab uska koi kam he is dunya me jo wo pura nahe kar pae he or wo tumhe pura karna he ab ye tum socho ke wo kya he..
all the best

jiya sharma said...

hii ankush.. i wish apko agle janam mein apka pyar mill jaye.. kynki pyar to janmo ka bandhan hota hai.. soo keep smiling.... my frnd.. hope i will also get my love....

Fatir said...

Tmhari story me dam hai yar. Tm bhot bade dil wale ho apna khayal rakhna. 9901708338 ye mera number hai kabi b cl karsakte ho. Mai b ek ladki ko chahtu par how 2 purpose her dat i dnt knwTmhari story me dam hai yar. Tm bhot bade dil wale ho apna khayal rakhna. 9901708338 ye mera number hai kabi b cl karsakte ho. Mai b ek ladki ko chahtu par how 2 purpose her dat i dnt knw

Amit kumar said...

Hi ankush
I'm amit kumar. I'm also same you. Pls send your mail id or mob. No. On my mobile no. 8859685025Hi ankush
I'm amit kumar. I'm also same you. Pls send your mail id or mob. No. On my mobile no. 8859685025

Ankush said...

Hello friendz ankush here...
My email id z ankush.sharma.victor@gmail.com, friends, main god par belive nai karta par apne dil se shivani ki atma ki shanti k liye wish mangi uske liye bot thanx! I wish apko sabko apka true some 1 special mile, n uske sath apki shadi ho, n apke bache mujhe chacha mama bole thanx alot friends, n plz apke sath jo b sath relation mein hai use khub pyar de n khub khus rakhe, n ap khud b khus rahe... Thanx again...
Friend aap b apni aapbiti story yahan jarur likhe Becz, "khusi bantne se badhti hai, n gum bantne se kum hota hota hai"

barkha bharti said...

hey ankush aap SHIVANI ko hamesha aise hi pyaar karte rehna bczzzzzz pyaar hamesha zinda rehta hai

Anonymous said...

uske ruh hai tumhare sath....... roo mat haso ki woh tumhe milli n tumhe aache ke liye badla.... saacha pyarmilna bohot mushkil hai but tumhe mila...... uskey ruh hamesha tumhare sath rahegi......

Tanu said...

hi ankush ,
maine aapki story padhi to mujhe bhi bahot rona aaya, tumhara durd aur shivani ke baare me sun ke mere aankho me aansu aa gaye,kyunki mai bhi ek ladke ko pani jaan se zyada chahti hun aur wo bhi mujhe bahot pyar karta hai aru hum dono othere cast hai wo hindi hau mai muslim hai , hum shadi nai kar sakte ye jaante hai fir bhi dilo jaan se ek dusre ko chahte hai, kyunki sirf paane ka naam to pyar nahi hota na, kuch paakar kho dene ko bhi pyar kahte hai ,

shivani aapko apne pyar ka izhaar kiye bina chali gai but em sure k wo aapko dil se chahti thi but bata na saki kyunki uper walo ko hi shayad manzoor nai tha ye, shivani ka pyar hi hai jo aap 2 baar suside karne k baad bhi zinda ho, uske pyar ki qadar karo shivani is duniya me nai hai to kya hua uska pyar to tumhara hai na
ek baar aur ankush aap shadi kar lo kyunki shivani aapko aise ekel dekhegi to uski rooh ko taqleef hogi , apni nahi to uski khushi ki khatir apna ghar basa lo aur har burai se door rahna kyunki shivani ke kahne par hi to aapne nashaa karna chhora tha na.
mai dua karungi aap dono k liye

ALLAH shivani ki rooh ko har taqleef se bachaye aur usko jannat ata farmaye , Ameen, Summa Ameen

apna khayal rakhna

Anonymous said...

Hi ankush!
You can call me "frustrated"..

Anonymous said...

Hi ankush! I'm "psycho"..
Your story is really heart-touching..
Dost! Everything happens for a reason.. There is nothing in our hands.. She came like an angel in your life & reformed you by her love though she couldn't express it to you.. This is nothing but the height of love which has changed your attitude towards life.. You've given us your bad habits like smoking, drinking etc etc just because of love..
Almighty GOD sent her in your life to bring out some positive changes in you.. Her role is over.. Now its your turn to keep her alive in your day to day activities.. Never be a victim of those habits again otherwise she'll get hurt.. & if you do so then it'll be defeat of your love.. If you want to keep your love winning then live the rest of your life happily & concentrate on your study to achieve great heights in your future.. For your parents, for yourself & the most important "FOR YOUR LOVE "..
All the best...
Take care:-)

Anonymous said...

OMG God kisi se Aisa na Kre frnd. Apki Story pdkar Aansu nikal na aaye. O GOD !!!! T.C YAROMG God kisi se Aisa na Kre frnd. Apki Story pdkar Aansu nikal na aaye. O GOD !!!! T.C YAR

Anonymous said...

yaar apki story padkar to bht rona aya i wish i pray k kisi k sath b aisa na ho n apko koi achi life patnr mil jaye tc

Neelesh58 said...

Hi Ankush... aapki story padh k mere aankho mai bhi aasu aa gaye ku ki mai bhi kisi se sacha pyar krta hu pr ab mere us se baat nhi ho paati hai... tension mat lo yaar ab jo hona tha wo ho gaya.. bs itna he khunga jo aap change hue ho shivani k lie ab waise he rehna nhi to use bahut bura lagega... take care yaar.

Anonymous said...

apke story padh kar bahut dukh hua. par wo apko dil se chahte the kyuki tabhi to ap bar -2 bach gye or wo nhi chahti ki ap is duniya se jao is liye dubara aesa mat karna jisse use dukh ho. ap apne jindgi age jiyo isi me uske khusi hai.

vivaan said...

hey dud its awesome yar ...true love,.send me req on my dis id
gaurav.gaur312@gmail.com.

dud pyar real main aisi feling hai jo hamhe jeene ka matlab samjha jati hai ..dudd kabhi rona mat othwrse shivani ko bura lagega ,,,us ki yad ko sambhal kar rakhna....love hona aasan baat hai but love ko pana bahut mushkil ...ham kisi ko chahte hai but pata hota hai ki ham us ko pa nahi sacte ....its painful..

Anonymous said...

Abe jo pyar de wo mahan hote hai, n jo aisa pyar paye wo bahut-2 mahan hote hain, kyonki unme utni qualities hoti hai itna pyar pane ki, they deserve it.So Mr. Prem, Qualify yourself to get such dher sara pyar. Utho jago aur apne lakshya pe pahuchane se pahle ruko mat... - Zhandu Baba. mail me @ trickyuk001@rediffmail.com

richa said...

ankush pyar her kisi ko nhi milta...or hum toh yahi kah sakte h k aap unki khusi k liye humesa khush rehe...

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