Main jab apni pichli zindagi ke bare me sochti hu to ankho me pani pr hontho per ek halki si muskan aa jati hai.sochti hu wo bhi ek pal the kya sochti thi me.Kahte hai na ki insane ko apni puri life me ek baar pyar jarur hota hai ab wo pyar tha ya kuch or ye nahi pata.main pahile in bato ko nhi manti thi per jab muge hi pyar ho gya to apne aap yakeen ho gya.Main padhne me to itni acchi nhi hu per fir bhi kaise bhi karke paas ho hi jati thi. To papa ji ne socha beti padhne me bahut tez hai ise post graduation karwa dena chahiye or main pahunch gyi apne college. waha per sab naya tha ya ye kah lo ki meri duniya se bilkul alag. naye dosto ki kuch jyada chah nahi thi fir bhi lagta tha ki friends to hone hi chahiye.per waha ki life style bilkul alag thi sab apne me mast the sab itne busy the ki unke pas time hi nahi tha.maine bhi socha chalo kuch nahi to internet per hi kuch kiya jaye.main internet per chating karne lagi.per ek baar kisi ajnabi ki friend request aai jiska naam karan tha or maine join kar li.per aaj tak samajh me nahi aaya ki kyu join kiya tha mene use.kuch din tak to kuch nahi per ek din achanak wo ajnabi online aaya or hamari baat start ho gayi.

Main bhi to ek writer hu to maine apni ek kahani batai or ham me baat start ho gyi.usi din se wo ajnabi muge pasand karne laga.muge laga aise hi bol raha hai maine koi responce nahi diya.fir jab mene kuch jyada hi mana kiya to usne muge kaha ki main tumhe id se remove kar raha hu per apse pyar bahut karta.Maine bhi kuch dhyan nahi diya or usne muge remove kar diya.kuch din to yu hi beet gye ek din achanak usne muge fir se join kar liya mere punchne per usne bola ki me apke bina nahi rah sakta.muge lag raha tha ki wo mugse flrt kar raha hai fir bhi dil manna nahie chahta tha.mene use bahut samjhane ki kosis ki per wo kuch sunne ko taiyar hi nahi tha fir usne mugse kuch aisa bola ki mene use “ha” kah di.usne mugse bola ki agar aap meri life me aa jao to me peena chhod dunga or apni life bana luga.muge laga mere ha karne se kisi ki life ban rahi hai to ha bolne me problem kya hai.or mene use ha kar di per ha bolne se pahle mene use apni pic dikhai taki wo samag jaye ki main kya hu.kaisi hu dekhne me.usne kaha muge apki sakal se koi matalab nahi hai muge apse matlab hai.main andar hi andar khush ho gyi.socha ki kalyug me bhi aisa hota hai.fir wo meri bahut care karne laga.hamesa punchna ki khana khaya ki nahi kasame wade bahut kuch.dheere dheere muge use sach me lagav ho gaya.meri bhasha me bola jaye to pyar ho gya.ab mene use ahsah dila diya ki muge use pyar hai main uska bahut dhyan rakhne lagi use time per uthana, use khan eke liye punchna.uski baate sunna,uski problem ko sunna,kabhi kabhi solution bhi de dena.per usne jo mugh se wada kiya tha wo tod diya usne peena band nahi kiya, wo peeta tha or muge bata deta tha.or main use har bar samjhati thi ki accha nahi hai.uski tabiyat bhi sahi nahi rahti thi to main use bolti bhi rahti thi ki peene se tabiyat or bhi kharab ho jayegi.per wo nahi samjhta tha.mene use dekha nahi tha per use pyar ho gya tha usne bhi meri pic hi dekhi thi.mene bhi fir uski pic dekhi.hame aise baat karte karte 2-3 month ho gye.fir hamara milne ka plan bana.hamne milne ki sochi fi! nally ha m mil rahe the main bahut hi exited thi ki akhir me main apne pyar se milungi.fir hame jaha milna thaw aha pahunche wo aya ham mall me gye waha baithe bahut sari baate ki. Usne muge apni bate batai mene use apni bate batai . bahut si bate ki hamne.sach batau us din muge bahut accha lag raha tha soch rahi thi ki koi insane inta bhi accha ho sakta hai. Kitna sochta hai mere bare me kitna samjhta hai muge.kuch der baad ham log apni bate khatam karke apne apne ghar ki or chal diye mere hontho per muskan thi me soch rahi thi wah kya date thi meri.first date thi meri.usne mugse bahut acche se baat ki thi mene ghar apkar apni bahano se uski bahut tareef ki thi.accha laga use milne ke baad. Fir hamme bate hone lagi fone per net per chat per.dheere dhere use lagne laga ki main bahut achi ladki hu or wo muge dhokha de raha hai.isliye wo mugse kata kata rahne laga.mugse door jane laga.main use samjhati ki aap mere liye perfect ho per wo sunne ke liye taiyar hi nahi hota.bas ye hi kahta ki main tere layak nahi hu tu mugse door raha kar,main bahut galat insane hu,main bahut bada flrty hu.Main use batati ki aap the na jaise the muge apke past se koi lena dena nahi hai per ab to mere liye sahi ho na. Jab bhi baat hoti to main use samjhati.per wo nahi samjhta dheere dheere ham me baat honi kam si ho gyi usne mugse baat karna band kar di. Main use fone karti to wo kat deta ,main messeges bhejti to koi reply nahi ata main paresan rahne lagi jab bhi baat hoti use reason punchti to yahi reply ata main free nahi baitha hu main busy tha.to main use samjhati busy ho to ek baar bol to sakte ho ki aap busy ho per aap to kuch bolte hi nahi ho.per main use hamesa se samjhti thi. Dheere dheere main bhi frastate hone lagi muge chidchidahat hone lagi. Main apna gussa baki sab per nikalne lagi.sach batau to wo time mere liye bahut hi muskil tha. Kabhi kabhi lagta tha ki mugse milne ke baad use meri sakal pasand nahi hogi . muge lagne laga tha ki wo mugse baat hi nahi karna chahta hai main hi uske peeche padi hu.per mere sath hota ye t! ha ki ja b main sochti thi ki ab main use baat nahi karugi to wo muge call karta tha or apni majbori batata tha. Or main emosional hokar use call kar deti thi or baat kar leti thi per uska wahi tha ki busy hu time nahi hai,wo ye sab isliye bolta tha kyunki use apne dil me gilti feel hota tha. Main sab samjhti thi per bas yahi lagta tha ki kam se kam bata de muge ki wo busy hai. Fir achanak ek din maine uski profile me dekha ki ek ladki ne use “i hate you” likha tha. Maine socha kyu na is ladki se baat ki jaye puncha jay usne aisa kyu likha.main use join karne ke liye request ki. Baad me usne us request se muge join bhi kar liya ab maine use baat karna suru kiya.usne bataya ki wo karan se bahut pyar karti hai or karan bhi use karta hai or un dono me abhi ladai ho gyi hai. Ab muge sab kuch apne aap samajh aa gya ki karan itna paresan kyu tha.mene use fone kiya or bataya meri kavita se baat hui hai or usne aisa bola hai muge. is baat per usne fone kat diya or kavita ke paas fone kiya use bataya ki wo mere sath flrt kar raha tha per main ek acchi ladki nikli isliye wo muge kuch bata nahi paya.ye baat khud muge kavita ne batai ki usne ye bola to baad me muge uski sari kahi hui baate yaad aai or mene man liya ki is baat me main hi galat hu or main kavita ko samjhaya ki wo use apna le meri hi galti thi main hi nahi samajh paai.or fir main karan ko mail kiya ki wo ab apni life me set ho jaye or kavita ke sath khush rahe. Or wada kare ki aisa dobara kisi or ladki ke sath nahi karega.ye massage use karne ke baad maine kisi se kuch nahi bola.kuch der baad uska massage aya ki wo ab kisi or ladki ke sath aisa nahi karega or ab wo akela hi rahega na uski life me kavita rahegi or na hi main.or usne muge kasam bhi di ki main use contect karne ki kosis na karu.mene uski baat man li or use contect nahi kiya per dil to dil hai kabhi kabhi use baat karne ka man karta tha per mene apne mann ko samghaya.per kabhi kabhi kisi dusre no. Se message send kar deti thi.fir ek din achanak uski call meri didi ke fone per aai….

To be contineue……….