Hello all......aaj kuch aisa muka mila hai jisase apane dil ki bat keh saku waise to hajaro dost hote hai aap ke life ke bare me sunane ke liye par ye bat aap bhi jante ho...aap ki feeling samjhate kuch log hi hai,sayad mai usi ki dost ki talas me is blog pe likh raha hu..mai lagbhag 8 sal ka tha or mai mumbai me rehta tha ek bar mai apne hometwon gaya waha hamare pados ke uncle ji ke waha kisi program me khane pe jana tha.mai or meri puri family gaye,waha mujhe mera ek childhood friend mila ham sath khane baithe...uncle ji ke kisi relation me ek family or aai thi usme ek ladki thi jo hamare umar ki hi thi,wo bhi hamare sath khane baithi thi,fir usne khate samay hamse bate karne lagi or batao hi bato me hamko aades dene lagi ki koi bhi khana plate me nahi chhodega warana use dat padegi,ham thahre bachhe masti me lekin maine fir bhi apna food khatam kar diya.par pata nahi kisi ne meri plate change kar di jisame thoda food bacha tha.bas kya tha wo mere bilkul karib aayi or baras padi.....par achank mujhe kya hua mai kuch bhi samajh nahi paya,mai bas use dekhta gaya oar sunta gaya.8 sal me ye pehali bar tha jab mujhe kisi ki dat bhi sunane ka man ho raha tha.ham ghar aa gaye subah hui par aaj subah kuch ajib thi,pata nahi kuch tha jise mai mehsus to kar raha tha par samjh nahi paa raha tha qki 8 sal me sochane ki chhamta nahi hoti.fir use dekhane ka man hua,chale gay uncle ji ke ghar dekh aaya use fir kuch rahat si mehsus hui.fir kya tha roj subah breakfast or tea wahi hoti thi,fir pura din wahi guj! arne lag a bahut khus tha mai,ek din wahi pe kisi ki sadi me sirf ham dono ek sath gaye the,band baj raha tha sare dance kar rahe the ham dono ek sath khade the,achank kuch mehsus hua mujhe usane mere hath ki kalai bahut jor se pakadi or mere pure sarir me ek thandi leher si daudne lagi,usane mujhe pahali bar chua tha mai apani jagah se hil nahi saka,is trah ki khusi pahali bar hui thu mujhe..ab samaj aaya tha sayad mujhe pyar ho gaya tha..bas usi ko dekh kar khusi milti thi mujhe kahi pe man nahi lagta tha..ek din wo bhi aaya jab hame apane apane ghar lautana tha,ekdin subah pata chala wo apne ghar chali gai,mujhe kuch pata nahi chala mai rote reh gaya,or maine in sab ke bare me kisi se kuch bata nahi saka apne dost ki siwa,fir ham bhi laut aaye,or mujhe us din ka intjar tha jab hamko ghar wapas jana tha,ham 6 sal bad wapas gaye,or in 6 salo me sab kuch badala usaki yado ke bina or sayad or pyar badhta gaya uske liye mere dil me,mai jaise hi gadi se niche utara mera dost bhagte hue mere pass aya or mujhe gale laga ke bolo wo aai hai,ye word mujhe us samay sayad behos hi kar chuke the agar mera friend nahi hota waha,ab ek ajib si uljhan me tha mai use dekhane ki milane ki itani jyada tadap hone lagi ki mera dhyan ek pal ke liye bhi kahi nahi tha...lekin paresani sirf ek bat ki thi ki mai ye soch raha tha ki mujhe kuch ho na jaye use dekhane par mai kaise dekh paunga use itani khusi ho rahi thi mujhe...jaise taise sam ho gai..ab nahi raha gaya mai chale gaya unke ghar..bas najare usi ko dhudh rahi thi,kahi se kisi ne ek awaj lagi or wo samane thi or mera hi nam le rahi thi..kah rahi thi badi der kar di meharba ate ate...mai bas but bana usi ko dekhata gaya,man nahi bhar raha tha use dekhate,sare log bate kar rahe the par mai kya jawab de raha tha unki bato ka mujhe kuch yad nahi,kafi der ho gai thi ek najar dekhate,fir mere dost ne hila ke bulaya mujhe tab mai sambhal paya apne aap ko.or ghar laut aaya,ab bas use ji bhar ke dekhane ki ichha hoti mujhe....meri khusiyo ka thikana na tha,ham kisi mele me gaye sath m! aine ek payri si ring li uske liye.or use de di.ab mujhe pata nahi tha ki wo mere bare me kya sochti thi,or na mujhe janane ki ichha hui ki wo kya sochati hai mere bare me mai to isi me khus tha ki wo mujhase bat karti hi,mai kabhi use nakhus nahi dekhan chahta tha.wo jis chij ke bare me kehati apne ghr me mai uski har ichh puri karta,or wahi karta jisase usko khusi milti,par mai nadan tha mai kabhi is chij ko nahi samajh paya ki duniya meri jaisi nai hai,wo mere hi kisi dost ko pyar karne lagi...mai samjhata gaya apne dil ko ki sayad yahi maga tha maine,ki wo khus rahe..mere dil ke mana karne ke bad bhi mai wahi karta jo use achha lagta..mai sayad khud ko mita deta us samay lekin usko khus rakhane ki kasam khai thi maine is liye kuch nahi kar saka apne aap ko bhi.mai jiya bhi to usi ke ke liye,ab sayad kuchh bacha nahi taha...mai payar bhi usi ko kar raha tha...or nafart apane aap se....aaj is bat ko karib 25 sal hao gaye...us din ke bad uske siwa maine kisi ko apane dil ke karib nahi aane diya,meri life me mere kai aise mod aaye jab mujhe ek achhe dost mile jo mujhase apani jaan se jayda payr karne lage par mai to sayad usi ka ho ke ra gaya..ab mai sayad marate dam tak uska chehara, uski hasi, usaki aakhe nahi bhul sakta.ha mujahe is bat ki jarur khusi hoti hai ki maine bhi wo feeling feel ki jisko maine sapane me socha tha ki kisi ke liye jiu..aaj bhi wo mere karib nahi hai par mai uski har ichh puri karta hu,uski khusi ke liye sab kuch karta hu,bas ek akhiri tamanna hai ki wo kabhi to mujhe samjh le or kabhi to wo ek labj uske muh se nikal jaye...ki ham bhi aap se pyar karte hai..dosto sirf aap se yahi gujaris hai ki mere liye dua karna ki meri aakhe band hone se pahle jivan ke kisi bhi mod pe mai ye word sun saku......